Thursday, December 25, 2008

Christmas with the Max family!

We had Christmas with my moms family tonight! Wow I am so tired and we still have the Roes to do on Sunday!!! I will blog about our Christmas morning with pictures soon..
We have had a relaxing busy and great day! hope you all have as well...

Christmas Eve

Merry Christmas to all! Lastnight we had Christmas with my sisters, step mom and ALL of the family. It was so much fun and definetly more pictures to come. At the top left that is all of us! Kerri Suzanne Courtney and Dawn... Next there is one of Kerri and Suzanne... She is glowing as her pregnancy is creeping to an end.... Last but not least is all of our beautiful little kiddos awaiting to open gifts at Omas... (left to right) Paul, Elliot, Mikel Ann, Ethan, Maddison, Molly, Ema-Liegh and Hannah!!!!
I love it!!!!!

Wednesday, December 24, 2008

Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas to ALL!!!

Today is Chirstmas Eve and we are on our way to Tennessee. We left a day late but we are doing well. The weather was a little bad lastnight and I was a little under the weather.
I am in the car right now blogging, the girls are asleep and ofcourse Brian is driving. Life has been a little crazy trying to make sure we have everything together and here we go!!!

Okay whoever left the message about updating on Mikel..... Here goes....
Her headaches are fewer these days. The test that was suppose to happen on Monday did not. The hospital had to cancel and we will do it, next week
I am pleased with her headaches and they are getting better.
I am trusting God is in control and all is going to be ok!!

I am so excited and can't wait to see my family....
Merry Christmas and we will chat again soon!!!!

Friday, December 19, 2008


Schools out and we leave in 3 days!!!!!!!!!!!!!! But then again-whos counting? I am by george.. I am so excited and ready to get out of ARKANSAS.
I love my home don't get me wrong. But I am so excited about going to Tennessee. I tell you it's like a kid in a candy store.

This weekend will be a busy one. Tomorrow we are driving 2 hours to attend a former ministers wifes funeral who also happens to be our dear pastors wifes sister. We are blessed by our pastor and his wife almost daily, and we pray we can bless them.

I hope you all are enjoying tha tlast minute rush- before Christmas....
I am loving it now.......
Have a wonderful weekend!

Cant wait to cross that state line!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wednesday, December 17, 2008


Six More Days and Counting!

My family will travel this holiday season

something we have never done. We will

be in Tennessee for a week over the holidays!

Brian and I are sharing our 12th Christmas together

and have never been in Tennessee. This year we are

going home. I am pumped and so ready.

I cant wait to be with my sisters like old days on Christmas

Eve and my nieces and nephews. Christmas morning to

wake up with my grandmother and see the kids face as they

get the one thing they begged for. YEAH!

This year has been a tough one for the Roe family. We lost our Pa

very quickly and unexpected. I think we have all handled

it in our way and we have watched our rock of

a mom stand firm.

When I think of my Ma Shirley- strength is what I see.

she has battled and won cancer, battled

loosing her sweet son, battled and won

the fight of the brain surgeries & taking a month long

vacation we tease her.....

Ma, you are a rock!!!! I love you so much and I am

blessed by you daily. Just the thought of you and everything

we have been through brings me to tears.

Your love, support for the last 31 years has never waivered

and for that I am thankful....

I guess my heart was fuller than I thought when I started this post. However, ever word is true, and I am never going to apoligize for any of it!!!!
Picture above is My sister Suzanne, me and our Ma and Pa!

Be blessed today!!!!!!!!!!

It's Hump Day!

As the week comes to a mid-week point if you must I have tons to catch up on. The past few days have been extremely busy. I don't think I have blogged about the weekend so here goes.
Last friday Brian and I had are annual Christmas shindig!!! Thats right a night at the peabody and some time with no kids. His Christmas party was fun and we enjoyed it all.
Saturday proved to be a very busy time for us. Saturday morning I went to the church to set up tables and decorate one last time for the banquet on sunday. At 3 pm the same day we had rehearsal for the program and honestly- when we left- I thought dear lord will we ever pull it off!?!?!
Saturday night we had the annual LANG CHRISTMAS PARTY!!!! What a hoot that bunch is. It doesnt matter whats going on we all can laugh and have a wonderful time together!

Sunday was beautiful, blessed, and anointed. God is faithful to those who love and serve him. The program was wonderful. The house was full; over 100 people there. The banquet was great and my wonderful in laws had it all under control.
I think our pastor was still reiling over the beautiful day on Monday. To think of the trials he has faced and to see a day like that HE WAS BLESSED. His beautiful wife did a marvelous job of directing the program.

Monday came with a bang and we made it through. Only to find ourselves at home for two days due to snow.... What a week. Brian, Hannah and Maddison have been sick. our pastors wife lost her sister lastnight, to a battle of cancer. It is a bitter sweet thing, for Mrs Ann was ready. Our pastor also lost a dear friend on yesterday.
We are praying for strength and courage for them both. They have a few days ahead that will be tough.
We love them dearly and pray God give supernatural strength to them both. We are lifting Brother Gene up and pray for God to pour strength into him like no other time.

So in the hustle and bustle hold your family close. Spend time with them and love on them. God is calling us all to a higher place.
Enjoy your week and I will return....
Until then.........

Thursday, December 11, 2008

An Update for you all!!!!!!!

Many of you have sent emails asking about Mikel. This week we were beginning to think YEAH its going to be a better week.
Monday she got really sick with a headache and I was pretty frustrated. She cries and cries, which I know only makes it worse. We survived that one and Tuesday and Wednesday she did great.
This morning around 5 she woke up in terrible pain. I felt so sorry for her I didn't know what to do. She hurt so bad. I gave her all the meds and she got no relief. She is right now laying in a dark room in an awful amount of pain. I hate to see her this way. I keep hopeing each day they will change her test around and get her in sooner. But until then we wait. If she doesnt have some relief today I will call them this morning and take her in.

You guys keep praying. I want her to enjoy life... She is a baby she shouldnt be in so much pain.
Until next time!

Tuesday, December 9, 2008

Good Morning

This morning I woke at 4:15a.m.
The last few days have been tough ones. It seems that everything came crashing at once. I have this new CD that has the song "You are Good". It is by point of grace and I have listened to it faithfully for the last week and a half. This morning I woke up with it on my heart- so I went out in the rain and got it. I had it going early and wow- how powerful the song is, when I really listen to it. I decided this morning to "really" apply it to my life today.
Not so much thinking of all my saddness and worries but of how GOOD GOD REALLY IS!
**And tha tno matter what is going on around me, HE IS SO GOOD!!!!

So here are the lyrics. I am sure they dont do the song justice for you--- however they speak to my very soul this morning. Have a wonderful day!

When the sun starts to rise & I open my eyesYou are good, so good
In the heat of the day with each stone that I layYou are good, so good
With every breath I take in,
I’ll tell You I’m grateful again
When the moon rises high before each kiss goodnight, You are good
When the road starts to turn around each bend I’ve learned, You are good, so good
And when somebody’s hand holds me up, helps me stand You are so good
With every breath I take in I’ll tell You I’m grateful again
Cause it’s more than enough just to know I am loved And You are good

Chorus :So how can I thank You, And what can I bring,
What can a poor man lay at the feet of a king
So I’ll sing You a love song,It’s all that I have
To tell You I‘m grateful,For holding my life in Your hands.

When it’s dark and it’s cold and I can’t feel my soul,You are still good
When the world has gone gray and the rain’s here to stay,You are still good
With every breath I take in, I’ll tell You I’m grateful again
And the storm may swell even then it is well,You are good

Chorus:So I’ll sing You a love song,It’s all that I have
To tell You I‘m grateful
For holding my life in Your handsYou are holding my life in Your hands

Monday, December 8, 2008

The holiday Blues have set in!!!

Today as I sit and blog it is a sad blog. It is also 12 23a.m. So if you aren't up for it; stop NOW!
I know as a mom of three wonderful girls I should be excited about the holidays. And although I have tried- I can't get there. I spent friday night and saturday trying to get motivated. Friday I started decorating the church. I took my old branch by branch tree and put it up. I thought surely it would help. I have fond memories of a "branch by branch" tree with my daddy. But no such luck. Saturday we had the Christmas parade and my girls had a blast. We rode on the float with my school kiddos, but I still couldn't get there. Immediately following the parade- I went to choir practice and we spent the next 3 hours finishing the church. It looks beautiful and I was glad to help, but I came home to find myself even more depressed than ever. Today there was church and I was overwhelmed with depression, fear and doubt. Noone knew becasue that is how I roll. I had no plans to go to church tonight becasue I was in such a funk. Tonight after an afternoon of events I finished cleaning. I am still up at nearly 12:30 a.m so there is no telling what I will do. My physical body is tired, but cannot find rest and my mental mind is running!
We have been on a rollar coaster of emotions lately, with Mikel and other things in our lives. I have given them to the Lord but I am not sure if I pick it back up or if satan throws a harder ball. Someone said today- wow God surely must have a big plan for you, because satan is working over time- well I don't know about that but I know I am trying to trust my heavenly father.
He has given me a great inherited family-, my own family is wonderful, a great group of co workers, great church and great friends. And for that I am thankful.
I don't like this funk, and I am not sure how to get out of it. I never know what might strike it up from the inside, but I know who can help me through. I just needed a little time to vent, cry and weep as I write this blog.

I know tomorrow is a new day. And for that I am so grateful.
I am praying I can take this week, to slow down, enjoy my kids, take in the time we have together each night and get rested as the week goes on.

The preacher said something today and I think I have grasped it--- You have to have peace within yourself with God, in order to make it through whatever comes your way. If you have that peace with God, then HE will help you through whatever comes!
Until next time!

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

Mikel Ann update!!!!

We are so thankful for those who have been praying. It has been an emotional roller coaster for sure. Mikel was up crying all night sunday night and it was very frustrating to see my baby hurt, and all the medicine was not helping.
We already had an appointment at 3pm on Monday so, we started to wait but she was in so much pain during the night we called early monday morning for an appointment. We went in and "just so happen" our headache doctor was working in the GPC. So we were able to see him.
They treated Mikel, changed her medicines, & told us we would do another MRI in 2 weeks.
Today Mikel had another horrible headache. It lasted hours and we are frustrated.

Please keep us in your prayers but most of all Mikel. We are hopeing that the headaches subside. It is effecting her schooling and her happiness and play time.......

We know God is faithful and we know He is able........
He is able to do exceeding and above all we ever hoped for............

Be blessed!!!!!!!!!

Saturday, November 29, 2008


Here is Mrs. Kerri showing her stuff! They didn't think she had it in her.
Hannah, Maddison and Mikel Ann--- we still don't know what Maddison is doing!!!

Here is Mrs. Kerri and Dillion going under the legs and backwards! How fun was that... They think I am kinda cool...

Our fearsome leader, by this we mean HE BEAT THE SOCKS OFF OF US!!!!!

Brittney and Tiffany- Always ready for a pose!!! Here they are!!!!!!!! Brittney, Tiffany, Neal, Jordan and Dillion!
Thank you guys from Mr Brian and Mrs Kerri....... We had a blast and can't wait till next time... I think glow in the dark bowling is soon very soon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Mikel Ann Taylor, is our baby. She is 7 1/2, she is in the second grade and is a wonderful piece of our lives. Recently we recieved some news that is a little overwhelming for us. We don't have all the pieces of the puzzle yet, we return back to the dr this next week. However I am asking that my fellow bloggers begin to pray. Mikel was diagnoised with migraines about 5-6 months ago. The headaches began in January. It took a few months but we got to the headache clinic and that is where the diagnosis was made. Well about 3 weeks ago she had one seizure. But it was enough to make the doctors want to do further testing. One of which was an MRI--- Last Tuesday Mrs. Pat and I went to take her in. Really believeing we would just get some answers that were all the same, she has headaches continue the medicine, blah blah.... But what we were told was devastating to us all.
Mikels test showed that she has a brain tumor. It is on the left side of her brain and that she will now see the nuero surgeon. THIS IS ALL WE KNOW......
We spent the first two days crying and looking at her very different. But I kept saying she is healthy. She plays, jumps, skips and she can't be sick. As parents Brian and I have allowed our minds to wonder and say ALL of the what ifs...... We finally reached the place yesterday that we had given her to God along time ago and she is His.
I hesitated in writing this blog but I so felt that If I didn't, my friends couldn't pray and right now we need every prayer that can be given. My aunt encouraged me to share with those that would lift Mikel Ann up.
I have asked God a million and one questions and I was directed to a passage of scripture.
2Corinthians 1:5--- For just as the sufferings of Christ flow over into our lives, so also through Christ our comfort overflows...-- The commentary study to this scripture states the following: Our suffering is a link to Jesus Christ. Through he was the son of God, he endured the frustrations of flesh while living in a sinful world. We still live in that fallen world. Some of us face physical, some face emotional stress and battles. But because Jesus lives within us, he shares the pains, the sorrows and the frustrations we feel. He joins with us in our suffering and ---even more encourageing---he also offers us comfort.
As a christian I realize I am going to go through some tough times; but I WILL NEVER GO ALONE!!!!!!
Thank you for your prayers and we will be believing for a good report.

Monday, November 24, 2008

This is what I think!!!!!!

I think this says it all. I saw this on another bloggers page. The cutest picture ever! It is kinda funny how we dread the family get togethers but yet we crave them so. So if yours is one of those love hate things!!!! STUFF THE TURKEY...


Sunday, November 23, 2008

I am thankful!

Good Morning All. It is Sunday am around 5:49.. Lastnight we had Thanksgiving with Brians extended family. There was food galour and people were wall to wall. I thought of our kids who are oblivious to anything and everything going on around. They were happy to be together and play. I thought of the new life we saw as little Sage Mae brought us all to say woo aww. Ofcourse I got her in my hands each time I saw a chance. She even smiled at me as I sat and talked to her like I was a baby myself. Something about babies... :-)
There are those who have lost and are still very sadden, and with the holidays rolling around I think those are the ones that have a new perspective on family. I see it in thier faces. We have some whose physical bodys are wearing and tearing. They are suffering greatly, but you would not know it. They laugh, smile and attepmt to live life to the fullest. I also see a legacy..... There we were all together. There was talk of how Granddaddy would never eat of a paper plate, and I made a statement of Maw Maws dumplings and fried potatoes. BUT WOW- what a legacy Maw Maw and Granddaddy have left. All 5 children and thier families together again. Celebrating Thanksgiving.
I am so thankful my girls get to be a part of such a huge loveing family. It doesnt mean everyone likes everbody at the same time, but then again what family does. But I see a legacy, a mantel if you will to pass to my girls.
There are those who were there that bless us beyond measure. Sherry and Kelly- you are a blessing. Your hearts and yes even Kellys big kid attitude- I have never met two people who just love life and being around. You both bless me each time we get together.
Aunt Louise thank you for opening your home and heart to us all.

In this holiday season I pray that we remember to be thankful for ALL we have. Our families here, our families that have passed on, and our friends that we hold close as family as we travel this journey called life. Life is a dance, a dance we will never know completely because it is forever changing, but we can learn to enjoy it as we waltz through. Just remember not everyone will do the same, some will coast, some will waltz, some may even do the cupid shuffle, but as long as we all get to where we are going we will be there together!!!

Enjoy your sunday!

Saturday, November 15, 2008

Sickness Go Away!

Sickness go away and do not return to me another day!!!!!

I have literally been sick for THREE WEEKS! Now it is full blown Pnuemonia. I have to wonder will it go away. Two trips to the doctor, 4 shots in my backside, and 3 different prescriptions. I am not a sick person, however I am beginning to think I am in a rut!!! A vicious cycle of sickness and I WANT OUT!
How in the world does someone so busy and "healthy" get so sick? And who is going to care for all I am responsible for. Well in the words of my grandmother, "you go and go and never slow down and in order to care for yourself, you have to be sick"....
I am slowly learning, the hard way, that my grandmother is so right. No one will care for you like you do so just take care of yourself. It is so hard in my life to SLOW down. However I find myself being locked in my house for the last two days and the next two nurseing myself back to health.
In my fast pase life I sometime forget what it is I am exactly "called" to do and be. What are we called to do? Who are we called to be? For me at this point in my life; I am called to be a daughter to my heavenly Father. I am called to be a wife, to my husband for the last 11 years, I am called to be a mom, to three beautiful girls. I am called to be a daughter to my mothers, I am called to be a sister, a niece, a granddaughter, a cousin, and a friend.
I am called to do whatever the day brings that would please my father. I am called to worship Him.... It is what I am called to do. It was the purpose of my life.
I am called to love and serve Him, I am called to be a witness of His GREAT LOVE!
What do I want to do? Who do I want people to remember me for.......
Joshua is one of my favorite Bible heroes. He was a great servant to Moses. He refused to be swayed by his peers or by the crowd when he spied out the Promised Land. He followed in the footsteps of a great leader and was a great leader himself -- not an easy task! Joshua was vigorous and vital even in his old age.Most of all, Joshua was obedient to God and did everything that God had commanded him to do, as well as what God had commanded Moses that he should do. In other words, Joshua was faithful!

O LORD God, my Father, when the story of my life is told,may I be viewed as one who was faithful to all that you have asked of me. I want to serve you with an undivided heart and a life that brings you the glory and praise you deserve for your generous grace. Lord help me to see what is first, what you have commanded and not to lead such a busy life that I miss what you have for me.

Monday, November 10, 2008

Makes Me want to Shout

As another day closes I wonder if tomorrow will bring better results. It has been a tough weekend. One that has a roller coaster effect but one that leaves me even more hungry for a GREAT move of God. Tonight as I wait in my chair as I often do for God to give me answers I hear this song in my heart. Psalms 92 says it is good to praise HIM.....
So all that is within me sings this song out and worships my father..... It is my job, it is my privilage, it is my honor;

When I think about the Lord
How He saved me, how He raised me,
How He filled me with the Holy Ghost
How He healed me to the uttermost
When I think about the Lord
How He picked me up and turned me around
He placed my feet on solid ground
It makes me wanna shout

Hallelujah thank You Jesus
Lord You're worthy of all the glory
And all the honor and all the praise
It makes me wanna shout
Hallelujah thank You Jesus
Lord You're worthy of all the glory
And all the honor and all the praise.

I am a person moved by music.... We have established that much. God spoke to me so strong tonight. He reminded me of all HE has done and all that HE is yet to do. I never want to be in the place that I forget---- nor do I want to be in a place that I put Him in a box and say you can't do that God. Today I come with tons of unanswered questions and the desires of my heart go further than just wants. I stand waiting on a miracle father. You said you would and I am holding to that promise. Father I love you tonight. And as I lay down and the burdens of this life overwhelm me , I recieve your blessing..... I accept your perfect will for my life and those that are my own.

Sunday, November 2, 2008

It is Well!!!

I know that most are not touched by music. However I also know alot of us are. I am one of those people. I am one of those that God will give a song to soothe my soul or to show me HE is still there. The one I have sung since Thursday night is one we all know. It is an old hymn that brings tears and Joys all at the same time. It is a song we all know, but is it a song we all can sing with confidence that it all is really going to be ok........ I must wonder how you feel about........

When peace like a river, Attendeth my way
When sorrows like the sea billows roll
Whatever my lot,Thou hast taught me to say
It is well It is well with my soul
My sin oh the bliss
Of this glorious thought
My sin not in part But the whole Is nailed to the cross
And I bear it no more
Praise the Lord,Praise the Lord O my soul
And Lord hast the day
When my faith shall be side,
The clouds be rolled back like a scroll.....
The Lord shall descend and the trump shall resound
Praise the Lord it is well with my soul......

May we always Count it Joy, and it always be well with our souls.....

Sunday, October 26, 2008


***Lastnight after a much needed conversation with a friend, I hung up the phone and immediately thought of this song. I woke up this morning with it on my mind, in my heart, and knew this blog was a must!!!!!

v.1 You dance over me, when I am unaware.
You sing over me, and I never hear a sound.

chorus: Lord I'm amazed by you, Lord I'm amazed by you.
Lord I'm amazed by you; how you love me.

v.2 You paint the morning sky with miracles in mind
My hope will always stand, For You hold me in Your hand

chorus 2: How deep how wide
How great is Your love for me

It is amazing to me that God ALWAYS knows what we need, when we need it and exactly what moment we need it. Life has thrown a few curves this week. But God knows how to curve them in a different direction. Because HE IS GOD!
Yesterday was filled with bible quiz meet, birthday party, grocery run and everything else in between. Yesterday I spent some time in prayer asking God to show me something. Anything but something. I felt I was loosing the battle over time, emotions, feelings and I was ready to throw in the towel. I was making dinner and my phone rang about 8:30.... I didn't recognize the number so I didn't answer it. (you all have done it before) Anyhow I didn't realize this call had left a message. About an hour later I listened to the message, that finally showed up, and realized it was a wonderful friend of mine that was out of town. I cried because I couldn't believe she took time to call me. She was out of town dealing with her own family tragedy. When I talked to her she had all the right things to say. She was anointed from the word hello.... I cried and she let me to some degree and then she said we are not ruled by our feelings, our fight is not flesh and blood. You have to learn to come back with your feelings and the lies of satan with the word. Kerri dont say it, when you say it that is what you get.... She asked me a question--- If you knew without a doubt GOD had healed you totally,(in every area- emotionaly, mentally, physically) how would you act??? I smiled as she said that. I knew what I would do--- I would dance, I would sing, I would dance some more and so on..... I would share with anyone who would listen "HOW GREAT IS MY GOD".......
So here we are sunday morning....... I have made a casserole for lunch, I am getting everything ready for the girls and I to get to church. It has been a while since I have gotten up on a sunday morning with energy and here we go attitude.... I was made to worship HIM.. It is my duty, it is my job and it is my privilage...
Okay- here is how God works- When I went to hang up with my friend, I said, "thanks for calling", Her responce was- "God told me to call you".
~~I am so blessed by God to have a friend as she. God thank you for allowing me to see your hand in the middle of a thorn bush. MAY I COUNT IT ALL JOY.......To watch you work your miracle in my life today......

~~After hanging up I was in Awe of HIS WONDERS..... He reaches us however He has to I am convienced... ~~

**Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us. Ephesians 3:20

**For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, agaisnt the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realm. Ephesians 6:12

Saturday, October 18, 2008


How in the world are you all? I have to say we are doing GREAT!
Thursday after work the girls and I headed out to Tennessee. It has been awesome! The drive here was awesome. The girls took a little nap and I got to listen to my music and sing and talk to the Father. It has been great. We arrived and we were greeted by huge hugs and great food. Friday we slept in, (until 7:30 ) Ma had juice, eggs, sausage, bacon, biscuits, and gravy.... We had a great breakfast. After that we headed to MAcys for a day of shopping. We had so much fun! We also went that evening to my aunts. The girls had a blast.
Saturday we went with my sisters and all nieces and nephews and Oma' to the Childrens Museum... It was fun but tireing.... Somehow 11 kids definetly out number 3 kids.......
Well it is Saturday night and we are at my aunts for dinner and tomorrow we will head home...
I will blog again later........
Hope you are all having an awesome weekend.....

Saturday, October 11, 2008

GOD - Where are you? VACATION!!!

This is the day the Lord has made, I will rejoice and be glad in it!

How are you out there my blogging friends? It has been a few days since I have blogged. I had a conversation with our principal this week. We were talking about how difficult the past weeks had been for me and my family. I said yes, I have wondered if God was on vacation. She mentioned to me that someone had given her some napkins that said "my gaurdian angel took flight without me"..... What a statement....

My father in law had surgery a few weeks ago and it is has been very difficult. I have been sick and trying to keep working and just begging for relief. By the time I think I am going to be okay my mother in law gets sick . She calls me at work, and says, "I think I have had a heart attack". Standing in my principals office in a meeting I stop, and within ten seconds I am out the door. The adrinalon starts to pump and the momma bear in me takes over and I am on a mission.

I get to her house withing 5 minutes and off to the hospital. So here we are the next day still here, and she is having a heart cath.

So, this morning I woke up with a scripture on my heart.
1 Corinthians 16:13 Be on your gaurd; stand firm in the faith; be men of courage; be strong.

As a christian I believe God is faithful and I believe that nothing comes to me unless my heavenly father says its ok. So when I say God, are you on vacation. I have had to step back, ask him what am I supposed to learn from the last 6 weeks of my life. This morning in my quiet time I made a request to God. father I am empty- I need you to feel me up, and give me JOY... I want to laugh, I want to smile and I want to walk in your light that radiates through me.

Well, let me share with you what my Fathers respond was----(okay please dont think I am nuts- however, I felt in my heart, I heard in ears, the words so plainly)

My daughter, my beloved, I love you. I am your Father and I want only the best for you. My promises is for you and you must allow me to hold you up. I would tell you that I have offered you peace, and a way out when there is a need. You my child must take it. You must let go of control and allow me to take control. I will not fight you but I will not disappoint you. I know what is best for you and I have ordained you for such a time. I have called you out and gave you your ministry. Now it is your time to rise up, take your place in the plan I have for you.

Wow, Lord how amazing you are... Teach me to just stop, take in the air, take in the peace that surrounds me. Father if I could just reach the end of this journey- But then again if I reached the end without a battle; the victory wouldn't be near as sweet.....

Father I pray you help me to know the battle is yours. It isnt for me to take but to give it all to you. I have to know you hold us in your hands. You rock us like a baby when we need it, and you hold us up straight and expect us to become the overcomers you have made a way for us to be, when it is time.


Sunday, September 28, 2008

First the Suffereing

And after you have suffered a little while, the God of all grace, who has called you to His eternal glory in Christ Jesus, will Himself complete and make you what you ought to be, established and ground you securely, and strengthen, and settle you. 1Peter 5:10

"Why do we have to suffer?" "If God truly loves us why do all the bad things happen to us?"For 1000's of years I am sure people smarter than I am have asked and wrestled with the same questions, and they still haven't discovered the answers. I dont even try to answer those questions anymore. I do have a statement I would like to say right there though. "If God only blessed us after we became believers- if he took away all suffering, hardship, and turmoil for Christians- wouldn't it be a way to bribe people into the faith?"
Thats not how God works. The Lord wants us to come to Him out of love and because we know we're needy- so needy that only He can fill those needs for us.
The reality is that from birth until we go home to be with Jesus we will suffer at times. Some have harder times that others, but suffering is still suffering.
I also think that when people watch us as we turn to God for help in our hardships and they see our victories, it provides a witness to them. That witness may not always make them turn to Christ, but it does show Gods presence in our lives and makes them aware of what they're missing.
Yes, we will suffer as children of God. The other day I had a thought about this; Suffering results in thanksgiving. When our lives turn to chaotic and we dont know what to do, we turn to the Lord for help, and He answers us. He answers our prayers and sets us free. And as a result- WE ARE THANKFUL!
I believe the time between suffering and thankful is when satan really attacks us in our thoughts. He may begin by saying, "if God really loved you, you would not have to go through this." It is satans subtle way of saying to us that serving God is useless.... I BEG TO DIFFER!!!!! The truth is problems will come if we are believers or nonbelievers. AS BELIEVERS- we will have VICTORIES! As a believer we can have peace in the midst of a storm, we can enjoy life even with the storm raging, because we can know that God is working on our behalf even when satan is raging all around. I KNOW THAT MY GOD WILL DELIVER ME!
The next attack is satan whispering how it is not going to get any better. He (satan) tells us we have served God for nothing. Satan will tell us if this happens when you serve God what could be worse if you don't. If God truly cared, he wouldnt let you suffer.....
THIS is where we have to stand firm and know without a doubt that GOD is working for us.
Job lost everything; his children, posessions and his health. But he continues to say"I..... thought He slay me, yet I will I wait and trust him" job13:15---
Job refused to allow satan to attack his mind and make him question God. How often do we allow satan to attack our mind? Job never said he understood everything, he simply knew that God was with him and he never doubted the love and presence of God.
THAT IS THE ATTITUDE I am strieving for. We dont have to understand it or explain it----
We just must know that God ask us to always trust Him.
Obediance is a requirement-understanding is optional..... (simple enough huh)

Wednesday, September 24, 2008

Praise the Lord!

Praise God from whom all blessings flow. Praise Him here you creatures low. Praise Him all you Heavenly Host. Praise Father Son and Holy Ghost......

My father in law had his surgery today. He is doing well. I am thankful to God for bringing Him through. now for the recovery.... Here we go......

Thanks for all of those who prayed for him today. Please keep our Pastor and His wife (Pastor Ron and Wanda) in your prayers. They are going through some heartacheas this week.

Thank you

Saturday, September 20, 2008

Why bad things happen to good people?

A catchey phrase but what does it mean? We all try to be good people, well most of us. We try to say the right things not to hurt anyone, and make the decesions that are best for our family. I don't know too many malicious, crule people. If you were honest with yourself, I bet you dont either. BUT we all know "good" people who go through some junk. And how many times have we said, But they are such a good family, they try so hard, why do bad things happen to good people????

I so wish I had the answer to that question. In the recent days my husband and I have encountered a not so pretty situation. It wasn't our fault we were just victims if you must. I am not even sure how to go about this blog, but I felt that maybe just maybe it would minister to someone. I have been searching the scriptures and
trying to lean on God and draw strength from his neverending well of love. Here are a few words from my heart and what I am trying to learn from it all.

Calming the Storm
Some people love the howling winds, flashing lightening and crashing thunder during a storm. Other people cower in fear. It's easy to look at others reactions when you feel safe. But when your security is gone and you're staring destruction in the face, it's not easy to be courageous.
I think of the disciples in Matthew 8... They were in great danger. Their fear was not unfolded. When we hit "sudden" storms what do we do? We all face furious test. Some are more dangerous than some but some are out of our control. I have found that Jesus sleeps until we ask him to help. I see so many times in my life where I "bailed" water if you will before I woke Him and handed it to Him. I often wonder how people around me calm their storms? Do we immediately turn to God or do we carry it alone. In terror the disiples wake Jesus. "Lord save us" . In our personal storms how much are we like the disciples? Do we sit in secret and wait for the storm to pass. I am guilty of both.
I am amazed at each time Jesus steps into the waters and calms my storms. Notice He usually doesnt step in until I have called Him. And most of the time He ask some questions if we will listen, Are the waves still sweeping over the boat? I don't know about you but it is so easy to trust and be calm when the storm has passed. My God has asked me in the last week to TRUST HIM in the storm. I don't ever want to wavier or surprise God, I want HIM to know I will and DO TRUST HIM!
~~Fear is a normal human reaction. But it is not how we should live our lives, even when we are walking through a storm. When I am afraid I pray I can do as David did. He says, When I am afraid I will TRUST in God. Psalms 56:3
I believe (and am being tested) that fear is an opportunity to expand our faith in God. It is an opportunity to run to the Lord as your shelter, WE find refuge "under His wings". (Psalms 91:4)
I know that when we bring our fears, anxieties, and concerns to God, the only ONE who is fully able to calm your storms and defeat the giants that come against you and your family.
Be blessed today

Friday, September 19, 2008

Amazing how hi-tech I think I am!!

Okay I know I aint real hi-tech but my cute little husband is. right now at this moment I am sitting at the soccer field on the sidelines feet up on the bleachers, taptop in lap- and now I am blogging!!!
So it has been a long week. Monday and Tuesday I had sick youngens, Wednesday it was back to school and wow this past three days have been out of this world, crazy. I love my job and I am learning I love the people I work with. Today I had an incounter with my boss (principal) and she is such a Godly woman. I am so blessed to be working where I am.
So tomorrow it is saturday, should be rest day. We have to be in Little Rock at 8:45.... Yikes....
However the kids love it. So for now I am watching soccer trying to relax, and getting ready for the weekend...

hope you all have a good one!

Wednesday, September 17, 2008

Okay I didn't fall off the face of the earth!!!

Okay so some have said where are you? I am here, just totally swamped and exhausted.. The girls have started soccer and cheerleading in full swing. which means we have something Monday, Tuesday, and Thursday... I am physically exhasuted!! Brian has been working alot of over time and so I am on my own..... I am in the middle of alot of decisons and trials in my life. But I am sure that God has a plan and I am suppose to learn alot of little lessons through it all.
I am very sure when it is all over I will know exactly what it is God wanted me to learn from it all...

Have a good day and I will blog soon!!!

Saturday, September 6, 2008

Okay Here We Go!!!

By my latest blog you cannot wonder who I am voting for. I have been more involved with watching speeches and reading news articles than ever. It is more for me than just, Dem or Rep. It is more than oh my, there is a woman on the ballet. For me it is MORALS.... Something our country and society is very much lacking. As a mother with three young girls growing up and I want them to hold tight to thier teachings and not be an outcoaast in the world....

So in this blog I will do something I never have done. A fellow blogger posted a WONDERFUL blog and I am going to put some of it on here. Thanks for sharing your heart my fellow blogger...

I realize that mixing politics into friendly speak is like mixing water with oil. You just don't do it. However, a Blog it isn't necessarily polite conversation. It's me voicing my thoughts, concerns and opinions with no intent of getting into a policital debate and with no intent of harming friendships. We all have the ability to chose our politics and the reasons for which we believe. I have been amazed at the vast differences between the two major candidates this fall. In my opinion (which I surely have one) there is no way you can ride the fence between these two. It's either black or white; Republican or Democrat; McCain or Obama.The biggest decision affecting my vote this year is morals. I know. I am simplistic, unaware, uninformed---call me what you will. However, I am a mother concerned for the future of her children. I am not ashamed of my views and only wish the world thought just like me. I don't live in a bubble; although I would like to put my children in one.I am completely selfish. I don't really give a rip about criminal civil rights, terrorists having current visas or the next child sex-offender getting a good nights sleep. Just not some of the things keeping me up at night.

If you did not get a chance to watch Gov. Sarah Palin speak the other night, I am sorry. You missed a real treat. I have to admit that the things she said were quite consistent with my beliefs. She opposes abortion, favors vouchers for schools, promotes creationism in schools and actually believes that "individuals can make better choices than the government." How can you argue with that?!
I agree that socialized health care is a losing proposition and that the only way America is going to change is when individual people start being responsible for their own actions and start making good choices with the God given talents and resources that He has blessed us with. No social program is going to change the mind-set of a generation of Americans who feel entitled and oppressed by the government and American way of life. Now, here is the clincher: (this was taken from the blog of a fellow Christian)

As much as I care about politics (which is more than some and less than others), I do not believe that being heavily politically involved is the ultimate answer to what ails our country. Someone is going to win the next presidential race and when that person is chosen to be our leader, it will not surprise God. He allows leaders to be used in this world for all sorts of reasons. And all for His ultimate glory.I could sit here all day and try to get you to not vote for Obama, or to agree with Sarah Palin. But I won't! Because I believe God has bigger things for me to do.
Who you and I choose to spend our eternities with after we die is ever so much more important than who we choose to serve the next presidential term.

Be Blessed today and draw close to God, HIS Word and HIS Knowledge.....

Wednesday, September 3, 2008

Go Sarah Go!!!

There is so much I could say, BUT all I know to say is Go Sarah Go!

I am absolutely in awe over what I see God doing. I am so excited about this lady I cant even tell you. I am so excited to see a political person that has morals. She doesn't just talk about it; she walks the walk.

To God be the Glory!! American still stands and WE ARE ---- One Nation Under God Indisvisible, with Liberty and Justice for ALL!!!!

Saturday, August 30, 2008


Well, long time no blogging.... It has been a wild and crazy last two weeks. With getting adjusted to school and WORKING full time... I have been on overload...
Alot has happened in two weeks so here goes..
I indeed started work and I love my job. It has been a HUGE adjustment but Brian has been a tremendous help and we are doing it. The girls love school which in turn makes it easy to keep going each morning. We find ourselves getting up a little later each day of the week, it is kinda funny.... But we have yet to be TARDY!!! YEAH US!! The girls are all making good grades here in the first two weeks and learning thier new teachers. Maddison has FINALLY learned to keep her mouth shout, (per her teacher) (I am not so sure because from 3pm -8:30-- she never shuts up!!! Hannah is so excited about being the class librian. She loves her teacher and is very eager to go to school.. Mikel likes school and has Chancdee' in her class and well they have started planning what they will wear to school... (YES in second grade)
** On another note on the girls, they have officially started sports. I know those of you who know me go no way! Well we have avoided it this long and well it was time. I am excited. Maddison and Hannah are playing soccer, and Mikel is cheerleading. AMAZING.... So what happens is Brian does soccer practice and I do cheerleading. I am excited and Brian well HE HATES soccer.... But he did enjoy watching the girls... I know it will be good for the girls....

Okay on another note our family has had a big change in our lives. I have resigned from my duty at church. I needed time to focus on my family and with work, school, husband and kids there was no more time in my day, week, or in my mind.... We love our church family and the support we have recieved in this decisssion. FYI- we aren't leaving the church, we aren't doing anything different except; cherishing the family time we have.

Well, today is Saturday and we are off and running early. I guess our bodies are on school mode. I awoke at 4 and Maddison and Hannah at 7:30. This weekend will be a fun one... We are heading to the water park to celebrate Maddisons birthday that is Tuesday. I can't believe my baby is TEN.... (more to come on that later)

So have a great Labor Day weekend!!!!
Be Blessed!

Monday, August 18, 2008

First Day!

Well I thought I would just update all and let you know that we all survived the first day. I loved my day as a "working" momma, the girls all did so well. I was very proud.
Maddison signed up for annoucements today... Only 5th graders can do it, oh my baby is getting so big. She also told me she signed up for cross walk gaurd. YIKES!
Hannah said she met a new friend and had lots of old ones. She said she loved being a third grader and loves her teacher!
Mikel was so excited to be a 2nd grader. She was excited that there was some her friends in her class, and she said it was so easy... We will see how she feels in a week or two.

Today in my 4th grade class we were all in a happy mood and accomplished our first day, well....
It is now 8:02 and all kids are in the bed and I am off to take a bath.....
Yes I cooked dinner, (steak and potatoes, green beans) cleaned up and bathed all kids and washed hair and I AM TIRED!

Have a great night!
Until Next time!

Saturday, August 16, 2008

Out of Steam and not yet reached my destination!

It is now 5 pm on saturday afternoon. For those of you who don't know it I got a job offer on Thursday afternoon. I was excited but at that moment I realized, "I have so Much to do".. Well I took Friday to run and pay bills, finish up shopping, and spend a lit time with the girls. We had hair cuts, grocery shopping and all of that stuff.
Well I woke up this morning deteremined to get it all done. Vaccum, Dust get girls rooms in order and even shampoo carpets... I am almost completed but I am exhausted and out of steam!!! Now I havent even touched the kitch en or the kitchen table, (you know the catch all) But I have done the bedrooms and pt all clean sheets and washed comforters, shampooed bedrooms, and I am TIRED!!

I have made the statement I get more things accomplished at a speedier time frame when I am pressed for time... Why is that? Anyone else that way?
Well I best get on with business it will soon be time to get everyone bathed and fed again and ready for tomorrow....

Have a Happy Sunday~~

Tuesday, August 12, 2008

I love my Jesus!

It has taken some growing but I am learning to trust only in my Heavenly Father. He cares for me so much more than I ever knew.

The Lord is brought me and my family so far. I am thinking of where we were a yr ago and wow, I don't want to EVER go back there. I am so blesssed and sometimes I am not sure if I realize exactly how blessed I am.

Today I have learned that trusting God is so very rewarding. He always knows what is best for us. I personally have had to grow and keep trusitng HIM. I have never been in a place in my life where I have trusted HIM right now. I trust Him with my home, my marriage, our church, where we are and all of our ministry work as a family. I will tell you now that it has proven to be worth every second of it.
I am so thankful that God has graciously taken us (my family) on as His own. It is nice to have the confidence and the reassurance that GOD is in control of my life. And the hardest thing is, leaving it there and knowing that HE KNOWS MORE THAN I DO! Imagine that!!!!

Tuesday, July 29, 2008

100th Blog Post

Okay so alot has happened in 100 blog post. I would not even try to go back and recap.

Tonight I am not feeling so well. This entire issue with bloodpressure med is about to get me. I now know why people say it makes them feel blah..... I have felt very blah today. I dont know if it has anything to do with it or not. I will blame it on that anyhow. Maybe tomorrow will be different. I hope so. I will atleast have to change my PJS. these will be dirty for sure!

I dont have alot to say tonight. Operation "Save Me" went well today. No cokes and a mile on the treadmill...

Goodnight all-
Maybe the next 100 blogs will be more interesting that this one!

Monday, July 28, 2008


So today I went back to the doctor. The headaches are becoming a part of my life lately, AGAIN! She indeed said I had to be put on blood pressure medicine... YUCK! And to not much surprise said, "Kerri you are young and if you could loose about 40 pounds you could eliminate some of these health problems."

So tomorrow- I attempt the start of operation "SAVE ME"! I know sounds pretty silly from my end as well.... But I have three daughters that I want to see graduate, marry, (when they are 30) and I want to become a grandmother... WOO did I say that....

So you may hear a little more about it as the time goes on. Tomorrow I am going to start walking on the treadmill, I am going to weigh, no I wont tell you, and start my journal ling.... so what does that mean for me, well it most likely means NO MORE SONIC DRINKS! BOO WHO!!!!!!

until then~

Good Morning- Good Afternoon!

As stated in the blog post before I am exhausted. Did you get that? If you didn't well read it again.

Anyways Happy Monday! Today started a little late for us. After 11 to be exact. The girls and I slept in until we woke up. It is kinda funny how one will wake and then right after that another bedroom door will open.
This morning when I woke I got my bible, I needed a word from the father. After hearing such tragic news about a 11 year old little boy this week I have thought alot about my girls. I even had a dream last night that I lost one.
So this morning I opened my bible and it fell open to the scripture that says, God knows me- (paraphrased) He has me in HIS hands. No harm can come to me but through Him..
Well I appreciate that verse, It gives me protection, because as long as I stay in the word and living my life for God He is protecting me... But it leads me to a question. One many have asked, and most likely NONE have received the answer they so wanted. Why do bad things happen to good godly people... People who are favored by God and are in His will, some doing His work. I just can't understand...

I have prayed for my children, my husband and family this morning. Gods hand of protection on us all and that we be in His will and nothing can harm us...

~~~~Just my feeble lit thoughts today~~~~

Sunday, July 27, 2008

Extremely Tired!!!!

I once heard that if you are called by God and doing the work HE has called you to do then you don't get weary. Well. I didn't agree with it when I heard it, and I ABSOLUTELY don't believe it now.This has been a long 9 days. From last Saturday until today, it has been non stop. Now don't get me wrong- I loved being a part of VBS, But I was glad when it was over.
I know I am called to be a part of Gods work. I now know that it is in the music ministry. And for now that is where I am.
However, I also feel a higher calling, don't ask what it is, for right at this moment I don't know. I am asking God to reveal himself to my family, for sometimes we feel there is more.
Where is that more, God what is your bigger plan. However we also know that if we knew the bigger plan, we would mess it all up! So for now we are content in not knowing much. Continuing to learn from those God has put in our lives and grow in Him..
So for today at 9:40 p.m. I am where I am because God has picked me up and planted me there. I am listening to Him and moving in the direction He is calling me to go....

Until then, go rest.... Lean on Him and It will all be good!!!!!

Friday, July 25, 2008

Today I want to take just a minute to tell someone very special to me how much I LOVE Her!
Amy D Beasley- I love you. Amy and I are cousins by blood, sisters by heart. We went to school together since kindergarden, minus a couple of years. We graduated high school together and we loved it all the same. We have been out of school for 12 years, YIKES we are old, and I think we have grown closer the older we get. We laugh and we have cried. Our conversations arent always funny, God has lead us into some pretty deep discussions in the past months. I have to say our morals and lifestyle in our christian walk is one thing that binds us closer together than ever.
Amy, we laugh, we cry, we blog, we myspace and we talk until...... I love you and I can't wait untill we can dance together again in the wee hours....
**The picture above was taken at our ten year class reunion that we danced and had a ball at... And by the way- tell Erik- I love him too- He was destined to be in my life forever**
~Until Next time Cuz~

New Stuff at the Taylor Household

I come from a long line of chores as a child. I think my sisters can a test to that. We were expected to do our share. My dad and stepmom had list, they expected accomplished. I can remember once that the list was not accomplished... I don't remember trouble right away, but as the weekend approached and we wanted to go somewhere, well I just remember daddy saying remember on tuesday,........

I have to admit I have not been very hard on my girls in the chore department. I kept telling myself, they are just kids. Well those, "just kids", are now 7,8, and soon to be 10. Yes they are babies to me but in the real world, it's time to take some responsibility. Well oddly enough I must have thought about this before because I had bought, prolly six months ago, these adorable weekly chore charts. Well, I introduced them this morning. The girls were a little less excited than I was, but they were okay. What is funny is that they expected to go through the chore list and run and do it and be done. But I had to explain that this is your responisbility all day every day for a week. You may do it when you get up, but it may need attention throughout the day. So we will see how it goes.

I decided to do this today because 1st- I feel I never get anywhere in the cleaning department becasue they are constantly messing up. 2nd- with me going back to work soon we must do this as a team. I also explained to the girls as a TEAM, the TAYLOR WOMEN can do anything.

So I will keep you posted on how things go. The reward the girls are strieving for this week is a movie with mom and dad next friday night! We will see..

Until Then Remember~~ You are blessed!

Tuesday, July 22, 2008

Calling All Heros!

Vacation Bible School has officially begun! Tonight we had our opening party, and it was fun. I can't wait until we get everyone in there and start praising and calling on the one true hero.
Our theme this year is the Pirates Who Can't Do Anything! VEGGIES!
I am so honored to be doing the music. I am already praying that God would open our hearts, minds, and ears to all He has for us this week...

Up above are two pictures of the kids worshipping!

Below is Savannah helping me call the kids to worship!


Monday, July 21, 2008

Blessed beyond words!

It is now 12:42 a.m. and well I have heart full of STUFF tonight. (oh wait it is really morning!)
Anyhow, today (sunday) started at 6:30a.m. and I was up and at it, ironing, getting everyone ready for church as a mommy does. Having to be at church at 8 on sunday mornings makes for an early morning and a long day. Worship this morning was great. We got to witness Gods power even in praise and worship practice. God is Great! It is amazing to me when we ASK, God delivers... And Sister Mary says, AMEN!!!

My sweet little girls sang this morning. And they ALMOST did it all alone! I was so proud. They amaze me, and lift my spirits like nobody can sometimes. They prove to me that with GODS help we have poured into them more substance than I sometimes realize. Maddison even sang the verses to the song this morning; I can't wait to see what God is going to do with her! Amen and Amen!
During praise band practice tonight I know God was all about HIS business. I see HIM building our team, pulling us together in love and fellowship with one another as well as HIM. I can see us working together and with GODS anointing setting this town on fire... I am so excited.
After sunday school tonight, HANNAH JANE had a little party after church. She was so excited with her church friends. Her sweet spirit is amazing to me. She is so sweet loveing and fun.
Thank you Ms. April, Ms. Amy, & Mrs. Cheri for making it a huge success. (Yes it took us all to make it happen- There was at least 20 kids)
Tonight after church well, there was some growing process going on. It is amazing to me to see Gods work in my husband and my own life. I am not sure if he (Brian ) bucks God as much as I do, but GOD IS GOOD! (just a hint- bucking doesnt help much just makes lessons longer and harder to learn)
One last thing- Today I was very blessed by two very special friends. I don't even know what to call them, I believe my heart has begun to call them mom and dad. It is amazing to me how two people can show so much love and I feel so unworthy. I pray that they understand how precious they are to me and my family. I am not sure we understand it all completely but I would LOVE to be a fly on the wall when they get their crowns. For I know I am only one of the many they have blessed. Aas I said- I am blessed beyond words, God is truly AMAZING! I love Him more than words can say and I am so honored to be HIS child. I am blessed to be a part of HIS work..
Today I was at the church 13 hours all together. My motto tonight is this:

God is good, God is great, Send your strength to the Jacksonville hood! hahaha!!!!

Live your life so that when your feet hit the floor, satan shrudders, and says OH NO SHE IS AWAKE!

Saturday, July 12, 2008

Our week in a nutshell!

Okay so as a mother I could say alot of things about my girls but today I will share this weeks adventures. Monday - Wednesday, the girls spent the mornings at thier grandmothers church doing VBS. It appears that they were very excited on Monday, popped right out of bed and on thier way. Actually they were that way each morning. Tuesday after VBS we meet Oma, Aunt Dawn, Uncle Brian,(cousins) Molly, Elliot, and Paul. We had lunch and then went to Splash Zone. The kids all enjoyed themselves. I was glad to see them play together. I guess I somewhat wish we had more time but hey..... Wednesday the girls were a little bit more tired than the other days but they were up and at it. they enjoyed bible school and went to thier grandparents (The Taylors) afterwards for a bit. That night we went back to McArthur Assembly for the closing service for bible school. Thursday was to be a down day for us but little did we know it would be a long one. Mikel Ann has been having headaches for OVER a month and I was sick of it. She was up all night on wednesday crying and I was going to get to the bottom of it. I called the nuerologist at childrens, they sent me over to the headache clinic. After talking to them for an hour, yes an hour, they say, can you be here in an hour.... YIKES- We are still all in Pjs and hanging out. But we managed to get there. The wait was very short and the doctor was excellent. They sent us to radiology to have a CT scan done. the next day they called and said the CT was normal, and started Mikel on meds lastnight. Poor baby... I hate it!!!! All three meds were pills. She had NEVER taken pills before. But she did it and her surprise was making cookies... :-)

Okay so after cookies it was off to play a game. Mommy and the girls... We had never played this one so it took some explaining but they all got it. Mikel went to sleep on us, do to her meds I believe, but the rest of us played. Maddison is a yahtzee queen. She rolled three yahtzees and didnt even realize she did the first one...

I enjoyed my time with my girls. They enjoyed playing and laying in the floor with me as well. Today is saturday, I have a headache and the house is still quiet.... SHHH SHHHH, don't wake them....... And I am glad you stopped in.

Have a great day and be totally blessed!!!!

Big Mud Puddles and Sunny yellow Dandelions

'Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take - but by the moments that take our breath away.'
When I look at a patch of dandelions, I see a bunch of weeds that are going to take over my yard.
My kids see flowers for Mom and blowing white fluff you can wish on.
When I look at an old drunk and he smiles at me, I see a smelly, dirty person who probably wants money and I look away.My kids see someone smiling at them and they smile back.
When I hear music I love, I know I can't carry a tune and don't have much rhythm so I sit self-consciously and listen.My kids feel the beat and move to it. They sing out the words. If they don't know them, they make up their own.
When I feel wind on my face, I brace myself against it. I feel it messing up my hair and pulling me back when I walk.My kids close their eyes, spread their arms and fly with it, until they fall to the ground laughing. When I pray, I say thee and thou and grant me this, give me that. My kids say, 'Hi God! Thanks for my toys and my friends. Please keep the bad dreams away tonight. Sorry, I don't want to go to Heaven yet. I would miss my Mommy and Daddy.' When I see a mud puddle I step around it. I see muddy shoes and dirty carpets. My kids sit in it. They see dams to build, rivers to cross, and worms to play with.
I wonder if we are given kids to teach or to learn from? No wonder God loves the little children!
Enjoy the little things in life, for one day you may look back and realize they were the big things.
I wish you Big Mud Puddles and Sunny Yellow Dandelions!!!

How to plant your life?!?!

I came across this from another blog- It seemed so simple but it is so true.
thanks everyone for sharcing your blogs. This one blessed me beyond belief.

How To Plant Your Garden First, you Come to the garden alone, while the dew is still on the roses....
1. Peace of mind
2. Peace of heart
3. Peace of soul
1. Squash gossip
2. Squash indifference
3. Squash grumbling
4. Squash selfishness
1. Lettuce be faithful
2. Lettuce be kind
3. Lettuce be patient
4. Lettuce really love one another
1. Turnip for meetings
2. Turnip for service
3. Turnip to help one another
1. Thyme for each other
2.. Thyme for family
3. Thyme for friends

Friday, July 11, 2008

Trusting a God who is in control, In a very uncontrollable World.

This morning before anyone would wake I sat in the chair reading the word.In the scripture there is so much comfort. I have to say that when I am down I often forget the scripture is right here. I forget how powerful it is and how God speaks to me through it for sure. I often wonder how can I feel so close to God and in His perfect plan, and then something so uncontrollable come my way. Isn't God in control? Doesn't He see what is happeneing and can't HE just STOP IT?

Well Psalm 93 plainly says He is in control. It also says God is majestic and mighty. He created the world and HE holds it together. I think when we don't, and we aren't suppose to, see the big picture it is very frustrating. I believe our limited perspective causes us to question God's control; BECAUSE ONLY HE HAS THE BIGGER PICTURE.

Although God will always be in control, many things in this world and sometimes in our life seem to be out of control. God will not force us to serve Him or lean completely on Him. There are many people who choose to not trust and there are times in my life I think I can "Man Handle It". In reality those are the times I should lean hard on GOD. Finally, in Psalm 93 I see the people were very established in thier relationship with God. I am so thankful that even when I mess up GOD never reneges on His promises.

Lord thank you for your promises. Help me to see they are YES AND AMEN for me. You only ask for me to walk beside and live my life for you. Trusting and obey your word, praising you, and keeping my faith fixed on you.

Be Blessed today & know GOD IS IN CONTROL!

Monday, July 7, 2008

~~~I am so thankful~~~

Can I share with you a few things I have gone through the last few days. I have come to find out that God knows what we need, who we need, and exactly when we do need it.

Comeing from a broken home that was full of despair there were very few people I could trust. A few that I counted on and less that I could depend on. Even at 30 the last few days I found myself heart broken and lost once again. I felt like an orphan at 30. I know rediculous right.....

Well this past weekend we had a wonderful 4th of July with "Our Family"...... We have been so blessed by our new family. Our church family has blessed us beyond measure. This past weekend when I went through a bad ordeal with my "blood" family, I really realized that God had given me a blood bought family.
A family that is there for us, that loves me no matter what, and a family that holds me up by name on a daily bases. It is hard for me to except love, it is so hard for me to lean on those who love me. God is showing me I can't do it alone. He is showing me I have a family that loves me and I can be who I am without thinking about it. He is teaching me that people love me JUST THE WAY I AM.

I want to take a minute and thank Pastor Ron and Wanda for thier unconditional love for me and my family. For the prayers, the teaching and for believing in Brian and I and our family. There is another couple who have taken us in and mentored us and I am so thankful for them.... Brother Bob and Momma Lo--- Words can not express what these two people mean to us....
Richard and Cheri- our friends our pals, my drummer, and my angel singer.....
Thank you for our prayer warriors.... Mrs Theresa, I dont know where I would be without you!!

God, please help me to except all you have for me. Thank you for the power I feel in my life. I know you are working and I know that you are my Heavenly Father and you are putting me exactly where I need to be and helping me to except my call as your child, a wife, a mother, and a minister of your gospel....
Thank you Father for I am fearfully and wonderfully made... (Psalms 139)

Amen and Amen......

Tuesday, July 1, 2008

My little storm, my little faith, My big GOD!

Lord, today I come as I always do, completely unworthy, just a beggar of grace. Today You've come as you often do, and completely amazed me. Your graciousness to me is overwhelming. You've healed, sustained, delivered…my circumstances tested You and once again You've proven Yourself faithful. Giver of joy, Father of hope, Creator of Life…You have not forgotten me. You owe me nothing, yet I owe you everything. How many times Lord, have I approached Your throne about this very subject, knowing that you hear me, but not really ready to receive your response, in case it's not what I want to hear. I should have trusted Your heart for me, and remembered that Your promises are Yes and Amen. So many times I've stood in this very place with no words for You, only groans and sobs, and I trust that you not only heard, but felt each one with me. Today I stand in this refuge, but today I have words, oodles of them actually, and a song…because You have restored hope to me. How do I thank you enough, how do I show you the gratitude of my heart, yes Lord, even my very soul? Yet here in the midst of great joy, and great gratitude, great fear attempts to overtake me. I'm refusing it Lord, but it's a daily, sometimes hourly struggle. Truth calms me, but then memories assault me and remind me that the very worst can and does happen. But truth says that You carried me, and that You will carry me again. Speak Your perfect peace over me. I am yours, Your miracle, Your project from beginning to end. I didn't initiate it, I didn't manipulate it, Lord I wasn't even asking you for your grace when You decided to give it. You knew I would be afraid just as You know the rivers of fear You are now asking me to cross. Just help us to make it safely Father, all of us. Oh God, show us Your favor. We are praying and believeing. So are others. Not just for our faith, but for theirs Lord, show Yourself in power and glory. They need to see it, a fresh work, a new move, and I know that You who delights in the impossible, to You, this is but a small thing. Please Lord, for those who need it so desperately, Do this! Father finish what You started in me, and do what You do best, bringing this to perfect completion. I don't know how successful we've been, but we have tried desperately to give you honor and glory in the midst one of my darkest valleys. Now Lord, give us this blessing and watch how we will dance on the mountain top!

Peace- What is it and Who needs it?

Peace- What is it? How do you get it? Who needs it and who wants it? I want it, you want it.... So how do we get TRUE peace. I have come to the conclusion and realization my peace is not with other but my Heavenly Father. I have to come and sit at His ffeet to get the peace that I need. The following has helped me and hopefully it will help you.

Have a great day and enjoy Gods word and my thoughts and prayer.

Therefore, since we have been justified through faith, we have
peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ...
-- Romans 5:1

The cost of peace is always high. Our peace was purchased by
Jesus' enormous sacrifice. God made sure the price for our
rebellion was paid, but he didn't make us pay it because we could
never have fulfilled our obligation. Instead, God paid it himself
in Jesus.

Holy and loving Father, thank you for making peace and bringing
me back to you at great cost to yourself. Thank you, Lord Jesus,
for willingly surrendering yourself to the horrible cruelty of the
Cross. Thank you that I'm not treated as your enemy because of my
sin, but as a lost sheep that needs to be found. Thank you for
adopting me as your beloved child. In Jesus' name I offer my thanks
and praise. Amen.

Monday, June 30, 2008

~~God is Good God is Great I am thankful~~

The last week and a half have been amazing. As a part of the staff at our church, I am so excited to report GOD IS WORKING!!!!!!!!!!

Now let me take you back to last sunday, June 22, 2008. Our pastor has a spirit like no other. Faithful in believeing God can and WILL do anything and everything.....
He has been praying for his father 40 years. Last Sunday as worship leader I began the service- We sang "Soon and Very Soon". When we finished I asked the congregation, Can we sing it again and say Soon and Very Soon I am going to see the king. As we finished that song we moved right along to Look what the lord has done. I am happy to report after Look what the lord has done, Our pastors dad made his way to the altar... Now let me tell the Glory of the Lord fell on that place and GOD showed up and Showed out! It was amazing. More people came and God blessed. When we are obediant God is faithful. This sunday was no different. God was calling our people to surrender to HIM... Some needed Victory, some needed healing and Some of us just needed a fresh touch. We began church at 10a.m. and we ended at 12:30p.m. One of our faithful saints said she had been praying God to show HIMSELF real in our services and she was so thankful, He was so faithful.

For me, as the worship leader of the church, God has shown me He is faithful. He has also tested my obediance and I am glad to report I think I have past the test. It has been a time in my ministry when I have had to lean hard and listen to God, on what direction to go next. Which song to sing, when to stop when to go and when to allow God to do HIS work. I am so blessed that God is using me in His kingdom. I pray I never put self in the way and that HE SHINES through me each and everyday!

Friday, June 27, 2008

In honor of Elvira
MyHotComments.comI can't imagine my life or the lives of my family without you. Thank you for showing me what a friend really is. I have never known anyone like you. Thank you for showing me the way a "friendship with God" works... you keep praying and I keep pushing up and we will make it on top.

Thursday, June 26, 2008

Camp Time 2008!!!

Well I wish I could tell you everything that has gone on in our lives the last few months but it will all come in time. We will start at this last week. I went to camp as a counselor with the girls. It was awesome. god moves in our children when we can't see it all. He allows a seed to be planted and well, it grows after being watered.
The girls had a great time at camp and I have to say I did to. Thank you pastor for allowing me to support our kids and represent our church as a counselor..
Be Blessed and I have so much to tell you guys.....