This is the day the Lord has made, I will rejoice and be glad in it!
How are you out there my blogging friends? It has been a few days since I have blogged. I had a conversation with our principal this week. We were talking about how difficult the past weeks had been for me and my family. I said yes, I have wondered if God was on vacation. She mentioned to me that someone had given her some napkins that said "my gaurdian angel took flight without me"..... What a statement....
My father in law had surgery a few weeks ago and it is has been very difficult. I have been sick and trying to keep working and just begging for relief. By the time I think I am going to be okay my mother in law gets sick . She calls me at work, and says, "I think I have had a heart attack". Standing in my principals office in a meeting I stop, and within ten seconds I am out the door. The adrinalon starts to pump and the momma bear in me takes over and I am on a mission.
I get to her house withing 5 minutes and off to the hospital. So here we are the next day still here, and she is having a heart cath.
So, this morning I woke up with a scripture on my heart.
1 Corinthians 16:13 Be on your gaurd; stand firm in the faith; be men of courage; be strong.
As a christian I believe God is faithful and I believe that nothing comes to me unless my heavenly father says its ok. So when I say God, are you on vacation. I have had to step back, ask him what am I supposed to learn from the last 6 weeks of my life. This morning in my quiet time I made a request to God. father I am empty- I need you to feel me up, and give me JOY... I want to laugh, I want to smile and I want to walk in your light that radiates through me.
Well, let me share with you what my Fathers respond was----(okay please dont think I am nuts- however, I felt in my heart, I heard in ears, the words so plainly)
My daughter, my beloved, I love you. I am your Father and I want only the best for you. My promises is for you and you must allow me to hold you up. I would tell you that I have offered you peace, and a way out when there is a need. You my child must take it. You must let go of control and allow me to take control. I will not fight you but I will not disappoint you. I know what is best for you and I have ordained you for such a time. I have called you out and gave you your ministry. Now it is your time to rise up, take your place in the plan I have for you.
Wow, Lord how amazing you are... Teach me to just stop, take in the air, take in the peace that surrounds me. Father if I could just reach the end of this journey- But then again if I reached the end without a battle; the victory wouldn't be near as sweet.....
Father I pray you help me to know the battle is yours. It isnt for me to take but to give it all to you. I have to know you hold us in your hands. You rock us like a baby when we need it, and you hold us up straight and expect us to become the overcomers you have made a way for us to be, when it is time.