Tuesday, October 30, 2007


In life I have decided you don't find alot of people you call friends. I have found very few in my "almost" 30 years of life. In my recent days God has favored me to have more than I would have dreamed.
Friends that don't expect alot out of you, but stand beside you even when you screw up- Friends who say you are forgiven keep going the end isn't here yet-
Friends who say you are forgivin we keep moving.

Thank you God for friends that I never even dreamed would be the friends that would be the ones that would say keep going. Thank you for a pastor, a pastors wife, Chell, Sharon, Steph and a husband that stand by me, even when I screw up, fall face first, and wait for you to pick me up and we go again.

Lord help me to give grace where grace is needed and help me to be a friend when a friend is needed. Help me to remember that YOU are the ultimate friend but sometimes you do send us to be your arms, hands, and feet.


It has been brought to my attention that our minds tend to have a way to play tricks on us sometimes. Well I would have to ask how do we sort through the rubble and come to terms with the truth? How do we know when we have truly believed something for so long.
Repetitious TRUTH! The scripture says the truth will set you free. We all know that but what does it look like, what does it feel like, and where does it put me. Who does that make me? The key note is- To always remember who I am in Christ! If we are right with HIM, the world as we know it DOES go on and HE makes all things right with the upholding of HIS righteous right hand.

Lord help to become totally dependant on YOUR truth. No one else, but you. In my life there are stacks of rubble, Lord in your timing and in your place and with the right help, help me to sort through the rubble and turn to you for the truth. Help me sort it and take the sweet stuff- and leave the rubble. Help me remember WHO you are, WHAT you can do and WHO I AM IN YOU!

Monday, October 29, 2007


Words- We hold life and death in our tongue. Sometimes we don't realize how much our words can hurt. A simple I am busy when said with the wrong attitude and mood can destroy someones day.

Lord help me to remember to build up and not destroy with my words. Father keep my tongue ever before you so that everything that comes off of it is uplifting and praise worthy.

Sunday, October 28, 2007

This is the Day that the Lord has Made!

This is the day the Lord has made, I will rejoice and be glad in it.

As I started this morning Lord I wasn't so sure. I pressed on and sang this song, This is the day the lord has made, I will REJOICE and be Glad. Time pressed on and I was a little overwhelmed with what ifs and should I's and Lord I can't. YOU continued to speak in your small still voice YES YOU CAN, my daughter.

As we got in the car, later for church than ever, the music came on and the girls began to sing.

v.1It's hard to stand on shifting sand It's hard to shine in the shadows of the night You can't be free if you don't reach for help You cant love if you dont love yourself There is hope when my faith runs out Cause I'm in better hands now
chorus- It's like the sun is shining when the rain is pouring down It's like my soul is flying though my feet are on the ground So take this heart of mine there's no doubt I'm in better hands now

v.2I am strong all because of you I stand in awe of every mountain that you move Oh I am changed, yesterday is gone I am safe from this moment on There's no fear when the night comes 'round I'm in better hands now

It's like the sun is shining when the rain is pouring down It's like my soul is flying though my feet are on the ground So take this heart of mine there's no doubt I'm in better hands now It's like the sun is shining when the rain is pouring down It's like my soul is flying though my feet are on the ground Its like the world is silent though I know it isnt true Its like the breath of Jesus is right here in this room So take this heart of mine there's no doubt I'm in better hands now I'm in better hands now

Thank you Father for using my girls to remind me I am in better hands now. When giving my life totally to you- I am in better hands now. You are the air I breath. In my desperation you reach out to me, in my time of need you are there. When I need to be changed- YOU do it in an instant. Lord help to remember to reach for help, freedom is there; Lord teach me to Love myself so that I can love others.

Thank you Father for being in that car today and using my girls to minister to me. In my madness of sunday morning rush hour- YOU were still there. HELP ME TO REMEMBER YOUR HANDS ARE A BETTER PLACE TO BE. HELP ME TO STAY THERE.

Saturday, October 27, 2007

Family Moments?! Family FUN!!!!

Life can be so much fun!!! Family, Fun, Simple and TOGETHER!!!!
Tonight my husband, three adorable girls, and myself set out on an adventure. Not one that I would have thought wow what a time of our life, just a little outing. It turned out to be one of the most exciting "family moments" we have had in a long time.
When we left home all the girls knew was we are going on a hayride. I was not too excited but Brian's old buddy would be there so I thought what the heck?!?!?!?!?!
Immediately on arrival we were met by an old friend, the girls scattered and began to have fun.
The fire was going and the hayride would come soon.
As I watched as everyone kinda went their own ways I just kinda stood alone. But in a moment where I felt alone I realized something, my family was being a "normal" family tonight. We were together mingling with other families and hanging out.
Soon enough we all came back together, gathered on our blanket next to the fire, just the 5 of us. We ate our dogs and smiled and had a blast. The hayride came and the girls loved it. Brian and I sat by the fire talked to an old friend and laughed. At one point we just hugged as we stood by the fire. I was truly blessed to be with my little family tonight.

God thank you for "MY FAMILY". They are what is most important to me after you. Help me to remember to make those memories with them because when it is all said and done, noone else matters.
Good Night!

Do I really need that Lord??

Here is the AWESOME thing about God! Even when we SCREW things way up- HE is there to help us make it right, It takes time- but it might be the time to see if we really need all that we "thought" we needed!

The world and its desires pass away, but the man who does the will of God lives forever. -- 1 John 2:17

So much of what we pursue is fleeting. Once we acquire it, we have to try to preserve it because we know it will soon be gone.God has promised me that just as He is eternal and will live forever, so also are those who pursue a relationship with Him and are committed to do His will. Lord help me to examine every thing in my life and see if it is "really" worth having. : "Even if it is worth having, is it going to last long enough to make a difference?"

Lord, please give me the courage to be honest about what I am pursuing with my life. I want it to count for Your cause.I want to make a difference for good. Some of that desire, I confess, is self-serving. However, dear Father, I truly do want to have a life that impacts others for good and that brings You honor.I don't want to waste my time chasing after things and relationships that won't last and don't matter. Please give me the spiritual wisdom to follow Your will and find Your life rather than chasing the shadow values of life. In Jesus' name I pray. Amen.

be back soon

Friday, October 26, 2007

~~~I Will Rise~~~

In a place in life where it isn't so black and white anymore one has to ask, God what is your plan?
The plan of God is VERY black and white! His book of guidance is our bible. He has it all in HIS PLAN. His plan is for each of HIS children to have a life of JOY, PEACE, & ABUNDANCE in Him.
***Romans 5:6 says, " you see, at just the right time, when we were still powerless, Christ died for the ungodly."

Today as our day started Mikel Ann was very unruly. Crying and fussing as such. She woke up this way. As a mother I began asking questions. Did she get enough rest? Is she sick? Is she hungry? But the conclusion I came to is well even if all of that is true...... She has a mouth and she knows how to tell me all of those things, right?
Well once I was at work I quickly realized what if she just couldn't put her words together. What if she was not feeling well and couldnt pin point where it was she hurt. What if I, her mother who she trust abundantly, had taken a few more moments to wait patiently and talk softly and tenderly for her to explain that to me.
This brought me to my heavenly father. What if He was never patient with me and He didnt wait on me to come to Him. What if He said she is whiny today I am not going to give her love and compassion and hope and restoration. What if He said, Kerri when you get it together- I will be here.
NOPE- He said come to me ALL who weary and heavy laiden- He said He would give rest and restoration and He would fill all the emptiness inside.

Lord I believe that your heart toward your children is one like your heart toward the children of Israel. I believe you know us inside and out. I believe you have called us. You said, "You are my servants; I have chosen you and have not rejected you. So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your GOD. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand." Isaiah 41:9-10

One day because of you Lord, I will look for my enemies and will not find them. That which comes against me will be nothing at all. Isaiah 41:12

"Do not gloat over me, my enemy! Though I have fallen, I will rise. Though I sit in darkness, the Lord will be my light! Micah 7:8

be back soon

Thursday, October 25, 2007

~~You are BIGGER than my giant~~

God, today I am so overwhelmed with your love. In a life that seems full of total chaos you reached forth your hand and said, Peace. In the middle of a storm I had allowed the devil to create, YOU said Peace. And because I allowed you to be LORD of my Life you gave peace to a storm that the enemy had been brewing for sure.

Thank you Lord that you are way bigger than my giant. God I know that you are very interested in me and my life. God I wonder if sometimes I put you in a box and say no this one is not doable. Please Lord show me that EVERYTHING is doable with you!

In the last week I have had to find you in a place in my heart that I wasn't sure you were still there. Once I released myself to find you, you were there. I quickly realized you didn't go anywhere you just simply wouldn't go against my will. I had to get to the place where I found YOU and YOU alone. Thank you for opening your arms and loving me. My giant is big, but you are BIGGER!

Today I have to ask you to help me be who you created me to be. Lord help me to remember where your blood flows, there is no room for evil. Lord I ask for your blood to cover my family. Brian, Maddison, Hannah, Mikel Ann and myself. Father go before us each step and keep my mind steadfast on you. Keep my thought process from wondering and keep me focus on you and the goal you have for me!!!
Lord help me to thrieve on YOUR love, YOUR joy, and YOUR peace and contentment.

~~~When the music fades, and all is stripped away, and I simply come..... Longing just to bring something thats of worth. That will bless your name....
I'll bring you more than a song, for a song in it self is not what you have required, you search mush deeper within, to the way things appear your looking into my heart-
chours-I am coming back to the heart of worship- It's all about you, It's all about you Jesus, I am sorry Lord for the thing I made it YES it's all about you Jesus.....

***God help me to remember who I am in YOU and ALL that YOU require of me***

Be Back Soon

Wednesday, October 24, 2007



This morning as I sat reading the word and trusting that God was there, I had to wonder, why is it soo very hard to Trust someone who has NEVER hurt you? Why is it so hard to trust a God who has NEVER let you down? A God who you know has been there before, because without HIM you would not have made it this far.
God almighty who knows you inside and out, good and bad, past, present and future, and He even knows the amount of hairs on my head.
I find it so hard to trust that He will work life out for me.

A few days ago I wrote a statement and I am trusting that I can live to it by Gods grace.
" Lord I will trust you when there is noone else there. I will trust you when I can't feel you I will trust you when I can't see you. I will hold on to YOU AND YOUR WORD and I will wait to step until I trust you are there to hold my hand."

Lord help me to trust you with every part of my body and soul. Everything that pertains to me LORD you care and you have a plan. If I will submit my will to you each and every day, every hour if needed you will guide me in your ways.

Have mercy on me, O God, according to your unfailing love; according to your great compassion blot out my transgressions. Wash away all my iniquity and cleanse me from my sin. For I know my transgressions, and my sin is always before me. Against you, you only, have I sinned and done what is evil in your sight, so that you are proved right when you speak and justified when you judge.Surely I was sinful at birth, sinful from the time my mother concieved me. Surely you desire TRUTH in the inner parts; you teach me wisdom in the inmost place. Cleanse me with hyssop and I will be clean; was me and I will be whiter than snow. Let me hear JOY and GLADNESS; let the bones you have crushed rejoice . hide your face from my sins and blot out all my iniquity.
Create in me a clean heart, O God and renew a steadfast spirit within me. Do not cast me from your presence or take your HOLY SPIRIT from me. Restore to me the joy of my salvation and grant me a willing spirit to sustain me.
THEN I will teach transgressors your ways, and sinners will turn back to you.
Save me from bloodguilt, O GOD. The God who saves me and my tongue will sing of your righteousness. O Lord, open my lips, and my mouth will declare your praise. ~~~Psalms 51:1-15~~~

Lord give me truth and only truth. Lord speak truth to my spirit and let me hear truth and no other voices.


Tuesday, October 23, 2007

~~~New Beginnings~~~

New Beginnings?
How do you start again when you have hurt so many? How do you start agian when you yourself have been so hurt? Not by someone else but by the mere enemy of your soul.
Today I begin this journey of healing and restoration just ME and GOD.
The Lord is my shepard I shall not want... What exactly does that mean? God you are my strength to do what is right and my guide in the steps to do so.
Life took a turn for me that I didn't intend for it to take. The enemy came in like a flood and distroyed me and those around me.
In a quiet moment I realized that the blood of Jesus had not covered me and I had allowed the enemy in and entertained him.
Lord Jesus for that I am so sorry. Lord Jesus please be my guide. I give you my heart soul and mind. Lord Jesus cover my mind soul and body with your spirit.
Today Lord help me to take every resource you have given to start this walk of life with you the center.
God help me get to the place where NOONE and NOTHING else matters to me but you!!!!!
Lord give me strength to do what is right. Make a mends where there is mends to be made. Help me to do it with GRACE and SINCERITY.
Lord show me that you are enough.
~~~be back soon~~~

Wednesday, October 17, 2007

God I know you are there!!!!!

Ever been so out of the loop that life seems to be going 100 miles an hour?
Okay, the other side of the fence, ever been so far in a pit that looking up hurts and life is going slow as a turtle?

Today as I come before the Lord I have to believe HE IS HERE! The last 24 hours have proven to put my faith to the test faster than anything... How is it that bad things happen to someone who is desperatly trying so hard to reach the top of a mountain. Someone who is begging to see light, someone who is begging God to bring her to the top so she can breath.

God I cannot understand your plan. Where is the line where you say ENOUGH that is my daughter? God can you really touch a storm and calm the waters. The water is drowning me Lord I need you to reach in and pull me out and set me on the bank to watch your healing waters flow.

God I will not put you to the test of if you don't do this then,...... However please God oh please- show yourself real to me today. If for only a minute I will take just a second and hold tight.
God I couldn't find you this morning, I was cold and lonely and there was no warmth from you holding me. God there was not even a shadow of you in my soul.

God forgive me if I am questioning you and if I am doubting you. I only need a glimpse of you.
Noone else matters no one else cares like you do- You are the air I long to breath in and breath out ..............

****I know your there, I know you see me. You are the air I breath and the ground beneath me. I can find you anywhere because I know your there......