Thursday, May 19, 2011

So Really? Absolutely!

Dear Readers,

If at this moment in time you are sad, depressed, mad, feeling edgy, or out of sorts; WELCOME TO MY WORLD! The last 2 weeks have been a world wind of trials and me wondering geez is this going to end?

Well here is what I have decided! It will end but probably not like I think it should. So today after having a not so good week I was grasping at straws trying to figure out how am I going to survive? I am going to survive because God said so! There is no trial that comes that I cannot survive if I allow HIM to carry me.
It all started over 2000 years ago on an old rugged cross. God thank for going to the cross. Thank you for coming out of that grave and loving me just as I am.

So I am going to continue to go back to that cross daily, hourly or even every minute to make it. Life is HARD! God is GOOD!

Wednesday, May 11, 2011

"Healer" - Kari Jobe Live Performance

I believe there come a time in our journey here on earth where we really do have to just believe HE IS ALL WE NEED! Today I am at this place. As I think of all that is going on in my mind, head and body I say it out loud. God you are faithful! You never back away You never turn your back. We as people are usually the ones that back away and feel we are being left. God help me to never walk away, turn my back or give up!
I believe you are my healer, my portion and YOU are more than enough for little ole me!
Thank You Jesus!

Wednesday, May 4, 2011

Easter 2011

Easter was a wonderful day. off to church then to sister in laws for lunch. Our life group had a cookout that night. At my sister in laws we had an egg hunt and I think it had been a while. It was so nice to see all the kids together. Taylor recently married and we added 2 more sweet babies. These pictures include my three and his four. LOVE LOVE LOVE it!!!
First picture is of Terri & myself at our LG cookout!

Springbreak 2011

Yes this post is a little behind. However better late than never. This past March for Spring break we headed to our recently bought place at the lake for a few days. We took the kids fishing and really enjoyed some down time. Here are a few pictures to show you some fun. We had some extra friends to come up. Lily and Allison joined us for a few days. We are so ready for some warm weather to head to the lake and hit the boat!

Monday, May 2, 2011

Father O How I love you! I am ready I promise

Lord, today I come as I always do, completely unworthy, just a beggar of grace. Today You've come as you often do, and completely amazed me. Your graciousness to me is overwhelming. You've healed, sustained, delivered…my circumstances tested You and once again You've proven Yourself faithful. Giver of joy, Father of hope, Creator of Life…You have not forgotten me. You owe me nothing, yet I owe you everything. How many times Lord, have I approached Your throne about this very subject, knowing that you hear me, but not really ready to receive your response, in case it's not what I want to hear. I should have trusted Your heart for me, and remembered that Your promises are Yes and Amen. So many times I've stood in this very place with no words for You, only groans and sobs, and I trust that you not only heard, but felt each one with me. Today I stand in this refuge, but today I have words, oodles of them actually, and a song…because You have restored hope to me. How do I thank you enough, how do I show you the gratitude of my heart, yes Lord, even my very soul? Yet here in the midst of great joy, and great gratitude, great fear attempts to overtake me. I'm refusing it Lord, but it's a daily, sometimes hourly struggle. Truth calms me, but then memories assault me and remind me that the very worst can and does happen. But truth says that You carried me, and that You will carry me again. Speak Your perfect peace over me. I am yours, Your miracle, Your project from beginning to end. I didn't initiate it, I didn't manipulate it, Lord I wasn't even asking you for your grace when You decided to give it. You knew I would be afraid just as You know the rivers of fear You are now asking me to cross. Just help us to make it safely Father, all of us. Oh God, show us Your favor. We are praying and believing. So are others. Not just for our faith, but for theirs Lord, show Yourself in power and glory. They need to see it, a fresh work, a new move, and I know that You who delights in the impossible, to You, this is but a small thing. Please Lord, for those who need it so desperately, Do this! Father finish what You started in me, and do what You do best, bringing this to perfect completion. I don't know how successful we've been, but we have tried desperately to give you honor and glory in the midst one of my darkest valleys. Now Lord, give us this blessing and watch how we will dance on the mountain top!

Wednesday, March 9, 2011


As today has come to an end I must just say a few small words. My heart is full, emotions are high and lots of questions could arise.
I want to thank God for my three sweet girls. Ever since my friend back homes little girl got sick my girls have heard GO LUCY GO! They get it! They know that Lucy is sick, they know that we are praying and they know that I believe GOD is going to heal Lucy. We pray for her in the morning, night and we even celebrated her birthday on Monday. We had pink/purple balloons, we have a bow; Well we are very in tune with Lucy!

Tonight when I got home from work I was very sick. What I found out was my sugar was low and I finally was able to adjust. With that being said I didn't go to church. Brian took the two little girls and Maddison stayed home with me. While they were gone Maddison decided she would stay in my bedroom with me. Here was our conversation.
Maddison:Mom I love you. I wish you felt better.
Me: I will soon.
Maddison: Mom, can we pray?
Me: ofcourse darling
Maddison: Lord I love you. My mommy loves you too. Please help my mom to feel better. I don't want her to be sick and not go to work tomorrow. And Lord please touch Lucy. Make her better. I want to meet her one day. Maybe even read her a book.
Thank you Amen.

You bet there were tears, I was so overwhelmed by her sweet words. But it gets better. When Mikel Ann and Hannah got home from church here was their conversation.

Hannah: Mom you feel better? Me: yes baby a little
Mikel : I prayed for you tonight. Me: Thanks sweetie.
Hannah: Mom our class prayed for Lucy.
Mikel: Our class too! And I told them I couldn't wait to meet her.
Hannah: Mom do you think we could meet Lucy?
ME: I think we will all meet Lucy. When Lucy is better I promise we will go see her.

It amazes me how our children here us when we pray. I am so proud of my girls.
When we said our prayer tonight they prayed again for me, Lucy, Haylee, and then they said together, "Now do it Lord Jesus"!

If I ever had any doubt of my spiritual leading in their lives it was laid to rest tonight. With God's help I must be doing something right!

Saturday, March 5, 2011

Wednesday, March 2, 2011

Go Lucy Go!

It has taken me a few days to post what is in my heart. Last week a family I love & respect dearly got the news that sweet Lucy has cancer. It was followed with a 9 hour surgery on Friday. Everyday I think of them constantly. I wake up during the night and check facebook for updates, I honestly hurt for them. Wishing I could be there to do something, anything, but something. All I have been able to do is PRAY. I have put her on every prayer list I have access to. I can't tell you I understand. But what I do understand is that God has called me to PRAY. Sometimes in the flesh it doesn't seem enough. But in the spirit realm it is a serious fight. As this journey has begun for this family it seems as if it has been weeks. In reality it has been one week since Lucy went into the hospital. I say this all to say this. Kate, Erik, Ella, Lucy & Jack : I am praying. I will continue to pray. I wish I could be there for you to do something, but I am here and I am called to PRAY.
Kate you are a marvelous woman of faith. A beautiful person inside and out. I love what I see God doing through all of this. I hate this disease, but what it didn't know when it attacked Lucy is that OUR GOD IS BIGGER! OUR GOD IS THE HEALER! I believe God is going to walk along this journey with each or you. I believe HE is carrying you when you can't walk & I believe HE IS GOING TO HEAL LUCY and bring her home again. I believe this is a season, a nasty season but when it is gone; what a testimony you will have.
Much love to the Krull & Rose family. I love you dearly. And you are continuously on my lips & heart in prayer.

Monday, February 28, 2011

Saturday, February 19, 2011

Another Day to Praise the Lord!

I want to give praise where it is due! Thank you father for seeing a need and answering prayers. Yesterday my daddy would have been 52 yesterday. He has been gone almost 17years. I dread holidays, his birthday, my birthday and the day of his death each year.

This year was NO different. I think I told my close friends a week in advance now look friday is..... As Friday rolled around it was no different. I woke with daddy on my mind and heart. I cried getting girls to school and cried until I left for a 10 am meeting. At my meeting we talked about it and I really couldn't see any good. BUT as the day went on God made a way.

I spent the entire day and evening with church leaders and friends. I served at a meeting on Friday night and loved being at my church. God knew what I needed and made a way. Even though I had dreaded the day for at least a week it turned out to be a good day.

Thank you to my wonderful church leaders/friends for allowing me to be a part of your life. There are no words to express my gratitude and love for you all.

Hey Daddy! aAnother year has past. God is blessing me and taking care of me. I miss you terribly. You have some beautiful grandkids. Maddison soon to be 13, Hannah 11, Mikel Ann 10 and Cale Michael just turned two. You would have just ate them all up. I wish I could have just one more day with you.

I wish we could take the girls to sonic, or let them see that their grandpa had no rhythm. :-)

Ma Shirley is doing good. She continues to walk and keep her self active. I know she misses you terribly. I cant imagine the loss in her heart.

I love you so much. I hope that you can see us and all that is going on. Brian and the girls are my life. I talk of you often and try to let the girls know as much about you as possible....

Happy Birthday my sweet daddy! You are missed & loved.

Tuesday, February 8, 2011

I miss my time with you!

The last few weeks I have been dealing with something very personal. Like a literal waging war inside of me. Not sleeping not eating and really just going through the motions. The last week I haven't slept worth a dang. The last three nights to be more specific I "finally" decided just maybe reading my bible would put me to sleep.
Last night was no different. But as I read psalms this is what was in my heart. I thought I would share.
There He was just waiting, In an old familiar place. An empty spot beside him where I once used to wait. To be filled with strength and wisdom for the battle of the day. I would have passed Him by again. But I clearly heard Him say.
**I miss my time with you. Those moments together. I need to be with you each day. And it hurts me when you say, your too busy. Busy trying to serve me. How can you serve me, When your spirits empty there's a longing in my heart; wanting more than just a part of you... I miss my time with you..

What an amazing thought that God wants to spend time with me. Why in the world do I continue to run and continue to not give Him the time that is due Him...

Wow! So here is my thought & heart for the day. I pray I never have to be kept awake all night again just so that my Father can have the time that is already HIS!

Be Blessed!

Friday, January 28, 2011

Just thought I would share!!!

I thought this was good

Have you ever been just sitting there and all of a sudden you feel like
doing something nice for someone you care for? THAT'S GOD talking to you
through the Holy Spirit.

Have you ever been down and out and nobody seems to be around for you to
talk to? THAT'S GOD wanting you to talk to Him.

Have you ever received something wonderful that you didn't even ask for,
like money in the mail, a debt that had mysteriously been cleared, or a
coupon to a department store where you had just seen something you
needed, but couldn't afford? THAT'S GOD knowing the desires of your

Have you ever been in a situation and you had no clue how it was going
to get better, how the hurting would stop, how the pain would ease, but
now you look back on it . . .

THAT'S GOD bringing us through tribulation to see a brighter day.

Do you think that this e-mail was accidentally sent to you?

Keep this going. You have no idea which one of Your e-mail buddies could
use a little hope today.

Dear God...

I know you're watching over me
And I'm feeling truly blessed
For no matter what I pray for
You always know what's best!

I have this circle of E-mail friends,
Who mean a lot to me;
Some days I 'send' and 'send,'
At other times, I let them be.

I am so blessed to have these friends,
With whom I've grown so close;
So this little poem I dedicate to them,
Because to me they are the 'Most'!

When I see each name download,
And view the message they've sent;
I know they've thought of me that day,
And 'well wishes' were their intent.

So to you, my friends, I would like to say, Thank you for being a part;
Of all my daily contacts, This comes right from my heart.

God bless you all is my prayer today,
I'm honored to call you 'friend'

Happy Friday

Hey Guys! Long time no post! It has been tough couple weeks. First knee surgery then I got sick with the flu! YUCK!
Thankfully everyone is back in swing with life. We survived momma's knee surgery with the help of daddy. Brian was AWESOME during this time. Then we have thankfully survived momma's bout with the flu.
I, a.k.a- momma worked my normal three days this week. Went back to the gym and life seems to be going back to normal.
Daddy- is back at work full swing and making things happen. He has worked on the road for three days this week so he seems to be a little more tired than normal.
The girls have also had a NORMAL week meaing no snow days. LOL.. Talk bout Global Warming!! what a ajoke....

Today is friday and I have enjoyed moving slow. Now onto laundry and dishes. Trying to figure out something fun for the Taylor Girls tonight. Brian is going to a "Mans Conference" at church tonight. I am so excited about him going! I know God will bless the men of our church and in turn bless us back here a home through ou men.

Well onto the weekend. Two birthday parties, church, spaghetti dinner, and maybe a game of clue with the kids.
Have an Awesome & Blessed weekend everybody.

Until Next Time!

Monday, January 17, 2011


Today has been a great day! It started at 10:30 am. Brian turned my phone off so I would sleep. Today is our anniversary. I got alot done in the house and then we went to dinner tonight with the family. Brian and I got married on his moms bday so it is usually spent with everyone!

Grandmother got a little icecream in the face... and the rest of us had a blast!!

Saturday, January 15, 2011

Saturday, January 8, 2011

I am so Blessed!

As many of you know I had surgery yesterday. The reasoning for my writing tonight is simply to say THANK YOU! Thank you to my church family who has prayed and stood in the gap. Thank you to Mrs. Linda Whitlow who came and went to the hospital with me. Terri, Robin, & Penny who came by to visit. Thank you to Brian who sat all afternoon as they waited for me to wake up. And then when I woke up and couldn't breath and needed oxygen for a few hours.
Thank you to my mother & father in law who shuffled kids around to their different places. Alicia and Mrs Brenda thank you for all you have done with Hannah and Mikel Ann. I know the kids have had a great time.
Brian and Maddison have taken great care of me today. I am having a more difficult time with my recovery than I expected. However I am sure tomorrow will be better.

Hope you all are having a Great Weekend!!
Much Love!

Tuesday, January 4, 2011

Are you Ready, Get Set GO!

"Get ready. Get set. Go!" These words from our childhood are
very important for us today as we seek to do God's will. God wants
us to be ready. But all the personal preparation in the world is
not going to make a difference if we have not dedicated ourselves
and consecrated ourselves to do everything that we do to glorify
God. Before we "Get set" and "Go," let's get ready by dedicating ourselves to the Lord
and his work!

Joshua told the people, "Consecrate yourselves, for tomorrow the
LORD will do amazing things among you."
-- Joshua 3:5

Saturday, January 1, 2011


Today has been an AWESOME day. (funny I chuckled as I typed Awesome- makes me think of my sweet nephew!)
This morning I didn't wake up until about 11:15. I got a great nights sleep. I hurried up made breakfast and met Sarah at the gym at noon. We walked 45 minutes and then it was home. I got so much accomplished today. Maybe it is true that exercise gives you more energy. I am excited about change. Brian and the kids laid around and did their thing. I got alot of cleaning done, dinner fixed and really felt accomplished. Have a Great Sunday.
Much Love

1st Blog of 2011!!!!

When you meet someone who lives, eats, and breathes Christian faith, you want what they've got more than anything-their seamless intimacy with God, their prayer power, their spiritual stamina, their passionate sense of expectation, the kind that doesn't shrink into despair at the first sign of setback.......

But how badly do you want it? Enough to toss anything from your life that keeps you from being 100 percent His? Enough to allow God's Spirit to bring radical spiritual change that might just scare you right out of your comfort zone? Enough to wait on God long & hard and invite whatever He requires to get you ready for what's next?

I want it all that bad.... I want all God has for myself & my family. I am on a mission to do everything He tells me and with every step become the healthy person He intends for me to be.
Something tells me this is going to be a journey that will Forever change my life. Come and go with me on a Journey to MY promise land!!

Much Love