Tuesday, July 29, 2008

100th Blog Post

Okay so alot has happened in 100 blog post. I would not even try to go back and recap.

Tonight I am not feeling so well. This entire issue with bloodpressure med is about to get me. I now know why people say it makes them feel blah..... I have felt very blah today. I dont know if it has anything to do with it or not. I will blame it on that anyhow. Maybe tomorrow will be different. I hope so. I will atleast have to change my PJS. these will be dirty for sure!

I dont have alot to say tonight. Operation "Save Me" went well today. No cokes and a mile on the treadmill...

Goodnight all-
Maybe the next 100 blogs will be more interesting that this one!

Monday, July 28, 2008


So today I went back to the doctor. The headaches are becoming a part of my life lately, AGAIN! She indeed said I had to be put on blood pressure medicine... YUCK! And to not much surprise said, "Kerri you are young and if you could loose about 40 pounds you could eliminate some of these health problems."

So tomorrow- I attempt the start of operation "SAVE ME"! I know sounds pretty silly from my end as well.... But I have three daughters that I want to see graduate, marry, (when they are 30) and I want to become a grandmother... WOO did I say that....

So you may hear a little more about it as the time goes on. Tomorrow I am going to start walking on the treadmill, I am going to weigh, no I wont tell you, and start my journal ling.... so what does that mean for me, well it most likely means NO MORE SONIC DRINKS! BOO WHO!!!!!!

until then~

Good Morning- Good Afternoon!

As stated in the blog post before I am exhausted. Did you get that? If you didn't well read it again.

Anyways Happy Monday! Today started a little late for us. After 11 to be exact. The girls and I slept in until we woke up. It is kinda funny how one will wake and then right after that another bedroom door will open.
This morning when I woke I got my bible, I needed a word from the father. After hearing such tragic news about a 11 year old little boy this week I have thought alot about my girls. I even had a dream last night that I lost one.
So this morning I opened my bible and it fell open to the scripture that says, God knows me- (paraphrased) He has me in HIS hands. No harm can come to me but through Him..
Well I appreciate that verse, It gives me protection, because as long as I stay in the word and living my life for God He is protecting me... But it leads me to a question. One many have asked, and most likely NONE have received the answer they so wanted. Why do bad things happen to good godly people... People who are favored by God and are in His will, some doing His work. I just can't understand...

I have prayed for my children, my husband and family this morning. Gods hand of protection on us all and that we be in His will and nothing can harm us...

~~~~Just my feeble lit thoughts today~~~~

Sunday, July 27, 2008

Extremely Tired!!!!

I once heard that if you are called by God and doing the work HE has called you to do then you don't get weary. Well. I didn't agree with it when I heard it, and I ABSOLUTELY don't believe it now.This has been a long 9 days. From last Saturday until today, it has been non stop. Now don't get me wrong- I loved being a part of VBS, But I was glad when it was over.
I know I am called to be a part of Gods work. I now know that it is in the music ministry. And for now that is where I am.
However, I also feel a higher calling, don't ask what it is, for right at this moment I don't know. I am asking God to reveal himself to my family, for sometimes we feel there is more.
Where is that more, God what is your bigger plan. However we also know that if we knew the bigger plan, we would mess it all up! So for now we are content in not knowing much. Continuing to learn from those God has put in our lives and grow in Him..
So for today at 9:40 p.m. I am where I am because God has picked me up and planted me there. I am listening to Him and moving in the direction He is calling me to go....

Until then, go rest.... Lean on Him and It will all be good!!!!!

Friday, July 25, 2008

Today I want to take just a minute to tell someone very special to me how much I LOVE Her!
Amy D Beasley- I love you. Amy and I are cousins by blood, sisters by heart. We went to school together since kindergarden, minus a couple of years. We graduated high school together and we loved it all the same. We have been out of school for 12 years, YIKES we are old, and I think we have grown closer the older we get. We laugh and we have cried. Our conversations arent always funny, God has lead us into some pretty deep discussions in the past months. I have to say our morals and lifestyle in our christian walk is one thing that binds us closer together than ever.
Amy, we laugh, we cry, we blog, we myspace and we talk until...... I love you and I can't wait untill we can dance together again in the wee hours....
**The picture above was taken at our ten year class reunion that we danced and had a ball at... And by the way- tell Erik- I love him too- He was destined to be in my life forever**
~Until Next time Cuz~

New Stuff at the Taylor Household

I come from a long line of chores as a child. I think my sisters can a test to that. We were expected to do our share. My dad and stepmom had list, they expected accomplished. I can remember once that the list was not accomplished... I don't remember trouble right away, but as the weekend approached and we wanted to go somewhere, well I just remember daddy saying remember on tuesday,........

I have to admit I have not been very hard on my girls in the chore department. I kept telling myself, they are just kids. Well those, "just kids", are now 7,8, and soon to be 10. Yes they are babies to me but in the real world, it's time to take some responsibility. Well oddly enough I must have thought about this before because I had bought, prolly six months ago, these adorable weekly chore charts. Well, I introduced them this morning. The girls were a little less excited than I was, but they were okay. What is funny is that they expected to go through the chore list and run and do it and be done. But I had to explain that this is your responisbility all day every day for a week. You may do it when you get up, but it may need attention throughout the day. So we will see how it goes.

I decided to do this today because 1st- I feel I never get anywhere in the cleaning department becasue they are constantly messing up. 2nd- with me going back to work soon we must do this as a team. I also explained to the girls as a TEAM, the TAYLOR WOMEN can do anything.

So I will keep you posted on how things go. The reward the girls are strieving for this week is a movie with mom and dad next friday night! We will see..

Until Then Remember~~ You are blessed!

Tuesday, July 22, 2008

Calling All Heros!

Vacation Bible School has officially begun! Tonight we had our opening party, and it was fun. I can't wait until we get everyone in there and start praising and calling on the one true hero.
Our theme this year is the Pirates Who Can't Do Anything! VEGGIES!
I am so honored to be doing the music. I am already praying that God would open our hearts, minds, and ears to all He has for us this week...

Up above are two pictures of the kids worshipping!

Below is Savannah helping me call the kids to worship!


Monday, July 21, 2008

Blessed beyond words!

It is now 12:42 a.m. and well I have heart full of STUFF tonight. (oh wait it is really morning!)
Anyhow, today (sunday) started at 6:30a.m. and I was up and at it, ironing, getting everyone ready for church as a mommy does. Having to be at church at 8 on sunday mornings makes for an early morning and a long day. Worship this morning was great. We got to witness Gods power even in praise and worship practice. God is Great! It is amazing to me when we ASK, God delivers... And Sister Mary says, AMEN!!!

My sweet little girls sang this morning. And they ALMOST did it all alone! I was so proud. They amaze me, and lift my spirits like nobody can sometimes. They prove to me that with GODS help we have poured into them more substance than I sometimes realize. Maddison even sang the verses to the song this morning; I can't wait to see what God is going to do with her! Amen and Amen!
During praise band practice tonight I know God was all about HIS business. I see HIM building our team, pulling us together in love and fellowship with one another as well as HIM. I can see us working together and with GODS anointing setting this town on fire... I am so excited.
After sunday school tonight, HANNAH JANE had a little party after church. She was so excited with her church friends. Her sweet spirit is amazing to me. She is so sweet loveing and fun.
Thank you Ms. April, Ms. Amy, & Mrs. Cheri for making it a huge success. (Yes it took us all to make it happen- There was at least 20 kids)
Tonight after church well, there was some growing process going on. It is amazing to me to see Gods work in my husband and my own life. I am not sure if he (Brian ) bucks God as much as I do, but GOD IS GOOD! (just a hint- bucking doesnt help much just makes lessons longer and harder to learn)
One last thing- Today I was very blessed by two very special friends. I don't even know what to call them, I believe my heart has begun to call them mom and dad. It is amazing to me how two people can show so much love and I feel so unworthy. I pray that they understand how precious they are to me and my family. I am not sure we understand it all completely but I would LOVE to be a fly on the wall when they get their crowns. For I know I am only one of the many they have blessed. Aas I said- I am blessed beyond words, God is truly AMAZING! I love Him more than words can say and I am so honored to be HIS child. I am blessed to be a part of HIS work..
Today I was at the church 13 hours all together. My motto tonight is this:

God is good, God is great, Send your strength to the Jacksonville hood! hahaha!!!!

Live your life so that when your feet hit the floor, satan shrudders, and says OH NO SHE IS AWAKE!

Saturday, July 12, 2008

Our week in a nutshell!

Okay so as a mother I could say alot of things about my girls but today I will share this weeks adventures. Monday - Wednesday, the girls spent the mornings at thier grandmothers church doing VBS. It appears that they were very excited on Monday, popped right out of bed and on thier way. Actually they were that way each morning. Tuesday after VBS we meet Oma, Aunt Dawn, Uncle Brian,(cousins) Molly, Elliot, and Paul. We had lunch and then went to Splash Zone. The kids all enjoyed themselves. I was glad to see them play together. I guess I somewhat wish we had more time but hey..... Wednesday the girls were a little bit more tired than the other days but they were up and at it. they enjoyed bible school and went to thier grandparents (The Taylors) afterwards for a bit. That night we went back to McArthur Assembly for the closing service for bible school. Thursday was to be a down day for us but little did we know it would be a long one. Mikel Ann has been having headaches for OVER a month and I was sick of it. She was up all night on wednesday crying and I was going to get to the bottom of it. I called the nuerologist at childrens, they sent me over to the headache clinic. After talking to them for an hour, yes an hour, they say, can you be here in an hour.... YIKES- We are still all in Pjs and hanging out. But we managed to get there. The wait was very short and the doctor was excellent. They sent us to radiology to have a CT scan done. the next day they called and said the CT was normal, and started Mikel on meds lastnight. Poor baby... I hate it!!!! All three meds were pills. She had NEVER taken pills before. But she did it and her surprise was making cookies... :-)

Okay so after cookies it was off to play a game. Mommy and the girls... We had never played this one so it took some explaining but they all got it. Mikel went to sleep on us, do to her meds I believe, but the rest of us played. Maddison is a yahtzee queen. She rolled three yahtzees and didnt even realize she did the first one...

I enjoyed my time with my girls. They enjoyed playing and laying in the floor with me as well. Today is saturday, I have a headache and the house is still quiet.... SHHH SHHHH, don't wake them....... And I am glad you stopped in.

Have a great day and be totally blessed!!!!

Big Mud Puddles and Sunny yellow Dandelions

'Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take - but by the moments that take our breath away.'
When I look at a patch of dandelions, I see a bunch of weeds that are going to take over my yard.
My kids see flowers for Mom and blowing white fluff you can wish on.
When I look at an old drunk and he smiles at me, I see a smelly, dirty person who probably wants money and I look away.My kids see someone smiling at them and they smile back.
When I hear music I love, I know I can't carry a tune and don't have much rhythm so I sit self-consciously and listen.My kids feel the beat and move to it. They sing out the words. If they don't know them, they make up their own.
When I feel wind on my face, I brace myself against it. I feel it messing up my hair and pulling me back when I walk.My kids close their eyes, spread their arms and fly with it, until they fall to the ground laughing. When I pray, I say thee and thou and grant me this, give me that. My kids say, 'Hi God! Thanks for my toys and my friends. Please keep the bad dreams away tonight. Sorry, I don't want to go to Heaven yet. I would miss my Mommy and Daddy.' When I see a mud puddle I step around it. I see muddy shoes and dirty carpets. My kids sit in it. They see dams to build, rivers to cross, and worms to play with.
I wonder if we are given kids to teach or to learn from? No wonder God loves the little children!
Enjoy the little things in life, for one day you may look back and realize they were the big things.
I wish you Big Mud Puddles and Sunny Yellow Dandelions!!!

How to plant your life?!?!

I came across this from another blog- It seemed so simple but it is so true.
thanks everyone for sharcing your blogs. This one blessed me beyond belief.

How To Plant Your Garden First, you Come to the garden alone, while the dew is still on the roses....
1. Peace of mind
2. Peace of heart
3. Peace of soul
1. Squash gossip
2. Squash indifference
3. Squash grumbling
4. Squash selfishness
1. Lettuce be faithful
2. Lettuce be kind
3. Lettuce be patient
4. Lettuce really love one another
1. Turnip for meetings
2. Turnip for service
3. Turnip to help one another
1. Thyme for each other
2.. Thyme for family
3. Thyme for friends

Friday, July 11, 2008

Trusting a God who is in control, In a very uncontrollable World.

This morning before anyone would wake I sat in the chair reading the word.In the scripture there is so much comfort. I have to say that when I am down I often forget the scripture is right here. I forget how powerful it is and how God speaks to me through it for sure. I often wonder how can I feel so close to God and in His perfect plan, and then something so uncontrollable come my way. Isn't God in control? Doesn't He see what is happeneing and can't HE just STOP IT?

Well Psalm 93 plainly says He is in control. It also says God is majestic and mighty. He created the world and HE holds it together. I think when we don't, and we aren't suppose to, see the big picture it is very frustrating. I believe our limited perspective causes us to question God's control; BECAUSE ONLY HE HAS THE BIGGER PICTURE.

Although God will always be in control, many things in this world and sometimes in our life seem to be out of control. God will not force us to serve Him or lean completely on Him. There are many people who choose to not trust and there are times in my life I think I can "Man Handle It". In reality those are the times I should lean hard on GOD. Finally, in Psalm 93 I see the people were very established in thier relationship with God. I am so thankful that even when I mess up GOD never reneges on His promises.

Lord thank you for your promises. Help me to see they are YES AND AMEN for me. You only ask for me to walk beside and live my life for you. Trusting and obey your word, praising you, and keeping my faith fixed on you.

Be Blessed today & know GOD IS IN CONTROL!

Monday, July 7, 2008

~~~I am so thankful~~~

Can I share with you a few things I have gone through the last few days. I have come to find out that God knows what we need, who we need, and exactly when we do need it.

Comeing from a broken home that was full of despair there were very few people I could trust. A few that I counted on and less that I could depend on. Even at 30 the last few days I found myself heart broken and lost once again. I felt like an orphan at 30. I know rediculous right.....

Well this past weekend we had a wonderful 4th of July with "Our Family"...... We have been so blessed by our new family. Our church family has blessed us beyond measure. This past weekend when I went through a bad ordeal with my "blood" family, I really realized that God had given me a blood bought family.
A family that is there for us, that loves me no matter what, and a family that holds me up by name on a daily bases. It is hard for me to except love, it is so hard for me to lean on those who love me. God is showing me I can't do it alone. He is showing me I have a family that loves me and I can be who I am without thinking about it. He is teaching me that people love me JUST THE WAY I AM.

I want to take a minute and thank Pastor Ron and Wanda for thier unconditional love for me and my family. For the prayers, the teaching and for believing in Brian and I and our family. There is another couple who have taken us in and mentored us and I am so thankful for them.... Brother Bob and Momma Lo--- Words can not express what these two people mean to us....
Richard and Cheri- our friends our pals, my drummer, and my angel singer.....
Thank you for our prayer warriors.... Mrs Theresa, I dont know where I would be without you!!

God, please help me to except all you have for me. Thank you for the power I feel in my life. I know you are working and I know that you are my Heavenly Father and you are putting me exactly where I need to be and helping me to except my call as your child, a wife, a mother, and a minister of your gospel....
Thank you Father for I am fearfully and wonderfully made... (Psalms 139)

Amen and Amen......

Tuesday, July 1, 2008

My little storm, my little faith, My big GOD!

Lord, today I come as I always do, completely unworthy, just a beggar of grace. Today You've come as you often do, and completely amazed me. Your graciousness to me is overwhelming. You've healed, sustained, delivered…my circumstances tested You and once again You've proven Yourself faithful. Giver of joy, Father of hope, Creator of Life…You have not forgotten me. You owe me nothing, yet I owe you everything. How many times Lord, have I approached Your throne about this very subject, knowing that you hear me, but not really ready to receive your response, in case it's not what I want to hear. I should have trusted Your heart for me, and remembered that Your promises are Yes and Amen. So many times I've stood in this very place with no words for You, only groans and sobs, and I trust that you not only heard, but felt each one with me. Today I stand in this refuge, but today I have words, oodles of them actually, and a song…because You have restored hope to me. How do I thank you enough, how do I show you the gratitude of my heart, yes Lord, even my very soul? Yet here in the midst of great joy, and great gratitude, great fear attempts to overtake me. I'm refusing it Lord, but it's a daily, sometimes hourly struggle. Truth calms me, but then memories assault me and remind me that the very worst can and does happen. But truth says that You carried me, and that You will carry me again. Speak Your perfect peace over me. I am yours, Your miracle, Your project from beginning to end. I didn't initiate it, I didn't manipulate it, Lord I wasn't even asking you for your grace when You decided to give it. You knew I would be afraid just as You know the rivers of fear You are now asking me to cross. Just help us to make it safely Father, all of us. Oh God, show us Your favor. We are praying and believeing. So are others. Not just for our faith, but for theirs Lord, show Yourself in power and glory. They need to see it, a fresh work, a new move, and I know that You who delights in the impossible, to You, this is but a small thing. Please Lord, for those who need it so desperately, Do this! Father finish what You started in me, and do what You do best, bringing this to perfect completion. I don't know how successful we've been, but we have tried desperately to give you honor and glory in the midst one of my darkest valleys. Now Lord, give us this blessing and watch how we will dance on the mountain top!

Peace- What is it and Who needs it?

Peace- What is it? How do you get it? Who needs it and who wants it? I want it, you want it.... So how do we get TRUE peace. I have come to the conclusion and realization my peace is not with other but my Heavenly Father. I have to come and sit at His ffeet to get the peace that I need. The following has helped me and hopefully it will help you.

Have a great day and enjoy Gods word and my thoughts and prayer.

Therefore, since we have been justified through faith, we have
peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ...
-- Romans 5:1

The cost of peace is always high. Our peace was purchased by
Jesus' enormous sacrifice. God made sure the price for our
rebellion was paid, but he didn't make us pay it because we could
never have fulfilled our obligation. Instead, God paid it himself
in Jesus.

Holy and loving Father, thank you for making peace and bringing
me back to you at great cost to yourself. Thank you, Lord Jesus,
for willingly surrendering yourself to the horrible cruelty of the
Cross. Thank you that I'm not treated as your enemy because of my
sin, but as a lost sheep that needs to be found. Thank you for
adopting me as your beloved child. In Jesus' name I offer my thanks
and praise. Amen.