Saturday, February 23, 2008

I'm in better hands, NOW

This song has become my testimony--- I live by the fact that I am in better hands. God has me in his hands and I am safe....

"I'm in Better Hands Now"
It's hard to stand, On shifting sand
It's hard to shine, In the shadows of the night
You can't be free If you don't reach for help
And you can't love If you don't love yourself
But there is hope when my faith runs out...Cuz I'm in better hands now
Chorus:It's like the sun is shining When the rain is pourin' down
It's like my soul is flying Though my feet are on the ground
So take this heart of mine There's no doubt I'm in better hands now
I am strong , All because of you.
I stand in awe of Every mountain that you move
I am changed, Yesterday is gone
I am safe From this moment on...
And there's no fear when the night comes 'round I'm in better hands now
It's like the sun is shining When the rain is pourin' down
It's like my soul is flying, Though my feet are on the ground
It's like the world is silent, Though I know it isn't true
It's like the breath of Jesus Is right here in this room
So take this heart of mine There's no doubt
I'm in Better Hands NOW!

Friday, February 22, 2008

Gods Blessings- Can you see them?

Gods blessings.... Do you see them? Can you see them even when you dont "feel" them. I have to remind myself daily that everything is a blessing. Regardless of how I feel or how I look at things, God is in control and HE desires to bless me......

How grateful I am for His many blessings. The are way too many to count. My salvation, my husband, my kids and extended family. My friends are awesome and well life is good even when it isn't perfect.

This week has brought along with it many different issues. Sunday night my heart was broken by words. Again satan tried his hardest to steal from me all the blessing God has given. I stood strong and satan lost. Monday was a sad day for me, my daddys birthday. But I know God has lots of answers for my many questions one of these days.
Tuesday was rejuvenating day for me. God poured into me a special word. He was preparing me for what would come later. He knew He would use me and I had to be full of His word and ready to battle satan.
Wednesday came and we had a great day. I spent the day out to lunch and shopping with my girls.... I LOVE BEING HOME WITH MY GIRLS!!!!!!
Thursday was fighting day but you know what, satan lost in the end... Praise the Lord!!!!
Today is friday and boy I am tired. today had it's own issues. We found out Maddison has to have surgery. She is a little worried but we have prayed several times and God is faithful.... Her faith is growing and I can really tell she is holding on to her relationship with the Lord. She is growing spiritually and I love that I am getting to be a part and watch her grow at such a tender age.
I leave you tonight with a blessing from the scriptures..... (thanks Ms Wanda for redirecting me baack here) Psalm 37:3 & 4 Trust in the Lord and go good; dwell in the land and enjoy safe pasture. Delight yourself in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart....... Amen Amen and Amen!!!!!

Monday, February 18, 2008

~~Happy Birthday Daddy~~

Happy Birthday Daddy!

Yesterday as I sat in church and Pastor Ron preached on Exodus 20 12 I thought of you. He Talked about parents and influences in our life and I refelcted on you alot. Tears streamed down my face the entire service. ( I am sure people t hought my life was full of sin) (smiling)

Today wow, Daddy if you could see all that I see. Maddison Hannah, and Mikel are wonderful. YOUR granchildren are wonderful. I see now what kept you going, it was us, your girls.
Maddison wow, she is so sassy. People tell her she is just like her momma, I dont know. She is doing so well in school you would be a proud grandpa. Hannah is well she is a mess. So loving and giving and well oh yeah she is Mas favorite. Kinda funny to me because she is just like her daddy. She has done so well since I took her out of public school. Oh did I tell you that I am homesschooling now.... YEah Yeah I hear ya.....
Mikel well she is your name sak....(spelling) She is so sweet, she is my baby. She looks a lot like you I think. High forehead and her eyes are yours for sure. She is as smart as a whip but is definetly my girl.
Daddy Brian and I have made it ten years. It hasn't been easy but he has kept me. I am happy. Doing what I always wanted to do, raising a family and being a mommy. God has been so merciful.
Daddy, I miss you like crazy. I cant believe you have been gone for 14 years. Somedays it seems just like yesterday, sometimes it seems like forever ago. I remember that weekend like yesterday, detail for detail. I suppose I find comfort in the fact that God needed you more than we did. And that Gods plan is not always our own but it sure doesnt make me miss you any less or want you here any less. Thank you for loving me unconditionally as my daddy. Through you loving me I learned how to love that way. I hope you can see all of the good stuff going on with us. But if you cant one day I will be able to share it all with you when I see you again in heaven. I love you my daddy.
Happy Birthday Daddy, my friend......

Thursday, February 14, 2008

Happy Valentines Day!!!

Okay- so let me start by simply saying Happy Valentines Day! I am not one for too much of this romantice stuff on a particular day of the year. I am not one who gets mad at the hubby if his gift is not just right, or if there isn't a big dinner planned or even a night on the town. I think it is one of these man mad holidays that well, just is a little red-iculous!!!!!!!
However, tonight as I circled Walmart at midnight I gathered some candies and things for my girls, my husband and my mom. Not in wondering what I would get in return but thinking it would brighten thier day tomorrow. I also thought about my dear sweet friend who her husband has been gone for two years on this day now...... I grabbed her a treat as well. My friend that was with me at walmart we laughed and he-hawed like we often do, but as we walked and talked about the day, I thought of the ultimate love.
Those of us who are christians, we believe that God loves us. We believe He died for us on the cross. But the thing I asked myself as we walked being silly tonight is, did I or do I return the Father the love He so deserves? Do I love like HE loves. Do I show HIS love through my actions to EVERYONE I meet? He is not conditional with His love, why would I be. I came home and got into my bible. I read all the things that LOVE is in the sight of my father...... My, my , my dear Lord how I have failed you in not showing your love as it needs to be shared and showed.
Dear Lord please help me to show and give unconditional love through you. Let your love shine through and touch each person I see and meet.
Thank you for this day and each day that you love me, even when I am soooo unloveable...

Sunday, February 10, 2008


Okay- So my question is, "Who doesn't thrieve on encouragement"? I then will ask, "Who and Where do we look for our encouragement"? I am not asking you anything I haven't asked myself and I have been trying to find those answers. I have found them. Finally after clearing all the cobwebs I have found them... But not where I first looked. I searched in people, places, and things and the encouragement I needed was no where to be found. But when I looked to God, and listened, HE ENCOURAGED ME!

Patsy Clairmont-"How do we find God? Sometimes we search Him out, other times, He "finds"us. Every time we think of God it is because He first had us on His mind. So know that once you have invited Him to enter your life, you are on His mind and He is in you heart."

Barbara Johnson- " God is all knowing, One who sees our scars, our secrets, and our strength. Our wounds and shame are HIS affair, and He knows just how much trouble we can handle. Somehow the fact that He knows us so well makes a difference. We understand there is a direction and we are a part of a bigger picture. From the wilderness in our lives, the fact that He see gives us a reason to carry on."

Psalm 138:3- When I called, you answered me; you made me bold and stouthearted.

Romans 15:5 May the God who gives endurance and encouragement give you a spirit of unity among yourselves as you follow Christ Jesus.

Phil. 2:1-2 If you have any encouragement from being united with Christ, if any comfort from His love, if any fellowship with the Spirit, if any tenderness and compassion, Then make my joy complete by being like-minded, haveing the same love, being one spirit and purpose.

2 Thessaloniana 2: 16-17 May our Lord Jesus Christ himself and God our Father, who loved us and be his grace gave us eternal encouragement and good hope, encourage your hearts and strengthen you in every good deed and word.

I pray these scriptures will open your eyes and heart to be encouraged through Christ. I pray that as I continue on this journey we call life God will keep on growing me in Him and through Him. My God is so amazing!

I am determined to do whatever it takes to keep my spirits up, and my heart pure before my God. I take Him at His word- that He would be with me and take care of me: that He will go befor eme and straighten out the crooked places; and even when I walk through the crooked places HE will guide me. I am trusting Him to be my comforter, friend and great physician. I cannot wait to see what the Lord will do and Where He w ill lead me tomorrow. So untill then, my friends... "Be Encouraged, You Who Worship God."

Until then Kerri

Wednesday, February 6, 2008

~~Nurse, Maid, Mommy, Wife~~

Today started as any other by getting out of the bed. Mikel Ann had been up and down and we found out she had an ear infection and a bladder infection. Now that seems like a sick baby to you, however to me it makes me mad. My pour baby had surgery January 4th for her ears. And she finished a round of antibiotics for her last bladder infection only two weeks ago. So you can only guess how frustrated it makes me.

When I came home from her appointment I came home to Martha, a dear friend of mine at the house. She had come to pick up her baby I keep. However today she was sick, and I put her to bed. We, my family, is all she has. Her wonderful hubby is in Iraq and well I guess I could say I am here to take care of them. Long story short Martha and I met through a job we both had. We hated the job in the end but we are both so thankful for it. Tonight when we got home from taking her to the dr and getting meds she was in bed. I stuck my head in the room where she was and I could tell she was crying.. I asked her what was wrong. She said nothing and then she sat up adn said, "I was just thanking God for you and your family. I don't know what I would do without you Kerri." I hugged her and told her our job had given us something good, each other. I told her that as much as she counts on me, I love her and the baby like crazy and the thought of them leaving almost hurts, physically.

SO I say that to say this....... I have been hurting lately and kinda feeling alone. And I realized how much more God must love me. He is so AWESOME and HE awaits for me to need Him. He is always there and no matter what I do He is here. I dont have to wonder if He will leave me or if HE will be mad or anything. He is a friend that sticks closer than a brother.
Lord I need you. I need you to show up in my life and teach me the ways. And when I fall , please quickly remind me that I am YOURS.
Dear Lord thank you for being my friend, my father, my savior and my comforter. Thank you for not walking away and thank you for putting people in my path to hold me up when I feel like I am loosing it.
Untill then have a great night everyone!

Monday, February 4, 2008

WOW- what a monday!

After three weeks of waiting our books arrived last week. It took me friday and the weekend to get it all out and seperated. Today we started working with all of our books and stuff. It was so overwhelming . Today we did school for a total of 7 1/2 hours I am exhausted. It is now 8:42 p.m. and all my girls are tucked away in thier beds.
I have to say today was a bit overwhelming however I enjoyed it and I am sure it will get easier as time goes on. The girls did well and worked hard.
I am so thankful for the chance to be my kids teacher, mom and friend.

Have a GREAT week everyone!

Praise Him Anyways!

I will praise you Lord!!! Current mood: spiritually hungry
Create in my oh Lord a pure heart. Come in and cleanse me from all unrighteousness. Lord I love you with all of my heart. When I feel alone you are there. When I need comfort your holy spirit is there. Father you alone are great and greatly to be praised.
I will praise you for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Lord I love you. Pour into me what I need tonight. I need you every hour of every day.
When this world is gone and all that is in it I will praise you o Lord. You alone are worthy and I will not let any rock cry out in my place.
I praise you when I feel it but I praise you more when I dont feel like it for I knowI was created to worship you, almighty God!

Saturday, February 2, 2008


Dear oh Saturday!!!!

Being a saturday, what exactly would you do if you could be saturday?
Now I know that sounds really funny, however it is a thought that is in my head. (Yes I have thoughts.)
Saturday is the day I sleep in and the past three have succeeded. Saturday is th eday I run a rat race to the grocery makesure the house is in order and the kids are bathed and cleaned for Sunday. Saturday is the day I try to catch up on everything I should have accomplished during the week, and Saturday is usually a day we as a family try to squeeze in an outting....
Okay so what does all this mean.... I don't know really. I was interested in my own writing "TODAY" a few days ago. I realized at that moment of writiing I understand all of my blessing for the day. All that God allowed to be in my life and each time I was blessed, well I reflected.
So here we are on saturday, I was blessed to sleep in and I was blessed when th ecall came and said I have homemade biscuits, ham and gravy.

So in all my rambling...... I will say be blessed today- SATURDAY! Do all your chores but don't forget to have fun in the process.

Untill then, Kerri