Today is a day I am having to sit and TRUST You completely! Yesterday that call came that I have dreaded for longer than I can remember. My grandfather is in the hospital with discourageing words from the dr,so we wait! Could it be your way of making him better and we are just selfish and don't see it that way. Is it your way of asking me to TRUST you one more time with someone I love so deeply. Lord I do, I put him in your hands.
Lord today I come needy~ I come to you and ask you to settle my spirit. Give me your peace. Help to accept that you have our family in your hands. You see the beginning,You see the end, and You see everything in the middle. ~~AMEN~~
Tuesday, November 6, 2007
Monday, November 5, 2007
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!
TODAY~is my birthday! Happy Birthday!
Interesting how you think that a day can make or break you. I did!
Today I turned 30! yeppers I am OLD! I sure hope the next 30 years are easier than the last. I say that to say this.
Those of you who know me know that I have said I HATE birthdays. It has nothing to do with getting older or not enough presents or whatever- it is all about the fact my daddy isn't here and my birthdays have been pretty meaningless in the last few years, the last 14 to be exact. But as I physc myself up to turn the big 30 I also have been allowing my God to do some AWESOME stuff in my life. That inturned has allowed today to be the best birthday I have had in 14 years! YEAH GOD!!! YOU ROCK!
It is amazing to me how the Lord just keeps on showing me how Awesome HE really is! In the last two weeks God has given me HIS favor and showed me HIS grace and granted me peace in my family like NEVER before!
Lord thank you for my birthday and thank you for another day to serve you. Also Lord, thank you for my daddy and all of the wonderful birthday memories I have with him. Help me to cheerish them and not hold tight to them as if they will slip away. The gift of memory you will not take away.
Bless us this day as it comes to an end. You knew the beginning, You knew the middle, You know the end, help me to except what I cannot change and change the things I can.
Lord help me to become the Godly woman You have called me to be- The trustworthy and honest friend and witness You would have me to be for you.
Thank you~
Interesting how you think that a day can make or break you. I did!
Today I turned 30! yeppers I am OLD! I sure hope the next 30 years are easier than the last. I say that to say this.
Those of you who know me know that I have said I HATE birthdays. It has nothing to do with getting older or not enough presents or whatever- it is all about the fact my daddy isn't here and my birthdays have been pretty meaningless in the last few years, the last 14 to be exact. But as I physc myself up to turn the big 30 I also have been allowing my God to do some AWESOME stuff in my life. That inturned has allowed today to be the best birthday I have had in 14 years! YEAH GOD!!! YOU ROCK!
It is amazing to me how the Lord just keeps on showing me how Awesome HE really is! In the last two weeks God has given me HIS favor and showed me HIS grace and granted me peace in my family like NEVER before!
Lord thank you for my birthday and thank you for another day to serve you. Also Lord, thank you for my daddy and all of the wonderful birthday memories I have with him. Help me to cheerish them and not hold tight to them as if they will slip away. The gift of memory you will not take away.
Bless us this day as it comes to an end. You knew the beginning, You knew the middle, You know the end, help me to except what I cannot change and change the things I can.
Lord help me to become the Godly woman You have called me to be- The trustworthy and honest friend and witness You would have me to be for you.
Thank you~
Sunday, November 4, 2007
We are home!
We are home! But boy do we have stories to tell. We had a great visit in Tennessee. I am always excited to go but this time was filled with memories and visits with family as well as friends. As we arrived it was "HAPPY BIRTHDAY" lunch with the grandparents. I so love my grandparents. These are my dads parents so I am EXTRA close to them. There is a place in my heart especially for them. My grandpa was sick so Brian had the honors of grilling. He didn't mind at all. I had the honor of calling and getting medicine for my grandpa and then going and picking it up- let's face it I loved it because I felt like I was helping take care of him. He is a hard one to care for so anything I can do- I am there. After lunch and after we played we loaded up and Brian and the girls dropped me at our beauty shop lady- Mrs. Debbie- She is a doll. She is more than a hair dresser to us she is a dear friend. (more than anyone will ever know) I hadn't talked to her in about 10 months so I was thrilled she had a spot so I could see her and to see what she would do with the bushes above my eyebrows.
Off to see my aunt at work and the ladies there. Funny how they all have known me forever and now they see my babies and my hubby... Life just keeps getting better. One more stop before heading to aunt Cindys and we stopped at Mueller. (This is where my grandma worked for 25 years) Two dear ladies Pat and Diane still work there. They started there one year before I was born. ( remember I will be 30 TOMORROW) I love these ladies so Brian let me run in and see them. Ofcourse they came out to see Brian and the girls and told Brian how lucky HE was to have me. ( Well that was my interpretation of the conversation) SMILEING!
Friday Nightmy aunt had a diner out of this world and my other grand mother came and my aunt and her daughter. My Uncle Ronald and Aunt Cindy are always so wonderful.
Saturday was just as full- There was SKYDIVING, Lunch with my Step mom for my b-day and then I went to a surprise party for a great aunt. I got to see so many old church friends and family memebers- It was GREAT.
After a couple hours of dealing with my grandfather on going to the hospital or not/ and trying to decide do we go home or do we stay we came home. Knowing that at anytime we could get a call and have to go back- But God you knwo that. You gave us a GREAT visit! We all FIVE were there and surely you knew that would all work out!
Thank you God for my family time with the extended family. And thank you for MY FIVE AND NO MORE!
Off to see my aunt at work and the ladies there. Funny how they all have known me forever and now they see my babies and my hubby... Life just keeps getting better. One more stop before heading to aunt Cindys and we stopped at Mueller. (This is where my grandma worked for 25 years) Two dear ladies Pat and Diane still work there. They started there one year before I was born. ( remember I will be 30 TOMORROW) I love these ladies so Brian let me run in and see them. Ofcourse they came out to see Brian and the girls and told Brian how lucky HE was to have me. ( Well that was my interpretation of the conversation) SMILEING!
Friday Nightmy aunt had a diner out of this world and my other grand mother came and my aunt and her daughter. My Uncle Ronald and Aunt Cindy are always so wonderful.
Saturday was just as full- There was SKYDIVING, Lunch with my Step mom for my b-day and then I went to a surprise party for a great aunt. I got to see so many old church friends and family memebers- It was GREAT.
After a couple hours of dealing with my grandfather on going to the hospital or not/ and trying to decide do we go home or do we stay we came home. Knowing that at anytime we could get a call and have to go back- But God you knwo that. You gave us a GREAT visit! We all FIVE were there and surely you knew that would all work out!
Thank you God for my family time with the extended family. And thank you for MY FIVE AND NO MORE!
SKYDIVING!
Okay! So I did it! I not only did it but I have the video, pictures and the t-shirt to prove it. It was amazing! I have to tell you for a week before hand I was pumped, and I was even pumped UNTIL we were in the air and ready to JUMP. I was like NOPE- can't do it. The instructor said, "you can not go down in this plane"!
So one, two, three and he grabbed my head back and out he pushed me!
It was AWESOME! The sky was soooo blue, the ground was so far away and the world was beautiful.
God surely knew what He was doing when HE created this place I will assure you of that. I could see fields and grass and trees and clouds it was beautiful. As we approached the ground I could see my babies waiving and waiving and I kicked my feet just for them!
Sky diving is something I will surely do again if given the chance!!!!!
Talk later
So one, two, three and he grabbed my head back and out he pushed me!
It was AWESOME! The sky was soooo blue, the ground was so far away and the world was beautiful.
God surely knew what He was doing when HE created this place I will assure you of that. I could see fields and grass and trees and clouds it was beautiful. As we approached the ground I could see my babies waiving and waiving and I kicked my feet just for them!
Sky diving is something I will surely do again if given the chance!!!!!
Talk later
Friday, November 2, 2007
The Real Me!
THE REAL ME
V:1Foolish heart looks like we're here again Same old game of plastic smile Don't let anybody in Hiding my heartache, will this glass house break How much will they take before i'm empty Do i let it show, does anybody know?
CHORUS:But you see the real me Hiding in my skin, broken from within Unveil me completely I'm loosening my grasp There's no need to mask my frailty Cause you see the real me
V2Painted on, life is behind a mask Self-inflicted circus clown I'm tired of the song and dance Living a charade, always on parade What a mess i've made of my existence But you love me even now And still i see somehow
But you see the real me Hiding in my skin, broken from within Unveil me completely I'm loosening my grasp There's no need to mask my frailty Cause you see the real me
Wonderful, beautiful is what you see When you look at me You're turning the tattered fabric of my life into A perfect tapestry I just wanna be me But you see the real me Hiding in my skin, broken from within Unveil me completely I'm loosening my grasp There's no need to mask my frailty Cause you see the real me And you love me just as i am Wonderful, beautiful is what you see When you look at me
V:1Foolish heart looks like we're here again Same old game of plastic smile Don't let anybody in Hiding my heartache, will this glass house break How much will they take before i'm empty Do i let it show, does anybody know?
CHORUS:But you see the real me Hiding in my skin, broken from within Unveil me completely I'm loosening my grasp There's no need to mask my frailty Cause you see the real me
V2Painted on, life is behind a mask Self-inflicted circus clown I'm tired of the song and dance Living a charade, always on parade What a mess i've made of my existence But you love me even now And still i see somehow
But you see the real me Hiding in my skin, broken from within Unveil me completely I'm loosening my grasp There's no need to mask my frailty Cause you see the real me
Wonderful, beautiful is what you see When you look at me You're turning the tattered fabric of my life into A perfect tapestry I just wanna be me But you see the real me Hiding in my skin, broken from within Unveil me completely I'm loosening my grasp There's no need to mask my frailty Cause you see the real me And you love me just as i am Wonderful, beautiful is what you see When you look at me
We are here!
We are finally here (Tennessee with my family) and I am so excited. We arrived and we have spent the day with family and friends and we have all totally enjoyed the day! Friends and family that I haven't seen in months and family that I may not see for months to come. Brian hadn't seen some of my family since the holidays last year so it has been exciting for sure.
Tomorrow we go SKYDIVING! And I am so excited. I can't wait to see the beauty that God created from another view. Lord thank you for my family. Thank you for the oppurtunity to come and visit on my special weekend.
30 is coming- Hope it is a good one for me!!!
Have a GOOD NIGHT! TALK TO YOU AGAIN TOMORROW!
Tomorrow we go SKYDIVING! And I am so excited. I can't wait to see the beauty that God created from another view. Lord thank you for my family. Thank you for the oppurtunity to come and visit on my special weekend.
30 is coming- Hope it is a good one for me!!!
Have a GOOD NIGHT! TALK TO YOU AGAIN TOMORROW!
Thursday, November 1, 2007
The Finer Things
Okay- I am convienced sometimes we just need to be kicked a little bit to except the finer things in life we sometimes forget about. You know like our husbands, our kids, and how important the small simple times with them can be.
Lastnight as the world celebrated Halloween we went to church to have our fall festival. My girls have never really dressed up maybe a princess here and there but they have always enjoyed going to church and hanging out. Well on the way to church one of the girls (who I will not name) said Mom you know what I love about tonight. I said what? She said that we are all going to church together. She said you always go but daddy is meeting us there, he told me this morning on our way to school, and she continued to say it is the fun times I remember the most with Daddy, us girls, and you mommy.
Okay so that absolutley did something to me. As we walked around, ate, played games, sang and watched all of the kids play, grab bags and bags of candy, ( that as a parent we really didn't want them to have) I thought- THIS is what it is all about. My husband, my kids, hanging together- wow we were at church surrounded around people who just like us- have lives, have issues and strive everyday to make it.
God how awesome you are. Thank you for planting us in a place to grow in You, with people who like us are striving to be like You.
Help me to remember that life can be simple- It doesn't always have to be hard and sometimes we make it so much harder than it has to be. Lord remind me to chill- take it day by day and when needed minute by minute. Help me to not borrow trouble from tomorrow for as a friend once said tomorrow will bring its own trouble.
Thank you for my little family, help to love them and take in every moment and not take it at all for granted not one moment!
Lord as we travel tonight, keep us in your hands and under your blood- safe in your arms is where we want to be. AMEN~
Lastnight as the world celebrated Halloween we went to church to have our fall festival. My girls have never really dressed up maybe a princess here and there but they have always enjoyed going to church and hanging out. Well on the way to church one of the girls (who I will not name) said Mom you know what I love about tonight. I said what? She said that we are all going to church together. She said you always go but daddy is meeting us there, he told me this morning on our way to school, and she continued to say it is the fun times I remember the most with Daddy, us girls, and you mommy.
Okay so that absolutley did something to me. As we walked around, ate, played games, sang and watched all of the kids play, grab bags and bags of candy, ( that as a parent we really didn't want them to have) I thought- THIS is what it is all about. My husband, my kids, hanging together- wow we were at church surrounded around people who just like us- have lives, have issues and strive everyday to make it.
God how awesome you are. Thank you for planting us in a place to grow in You, with people who like us are striving to be like You.
Help me to remember that life can be simple- It doesn't always have to be hard and sometimes we make it so much harder than it has to be. Lord remind me to chill- take it day by day and when needed minute by minute. Help me to not borrow trouble from tomorrow for as a friend once said tomorrow will bring its own trouble.
Thank you for my little family, help to love them and take in every moment and not take it at all for granted not one moment!
Lord as we travel tonight, keep us in your hands and under your blood- safe in your arms is where we want to be. AMEN~
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